This following information was found at Tom
Grants site.
Courtney Love's, husband disappeared, then was found dead. Little did she know
the fire storm this would cause.
The Private Investigator, she hired to find her husband began talking about a
possible murder instead of suicide in December 1994.
The investigators name is Tom Grant, an ex detective from the LA Sheriffs
Department. Since then, his theory has appeared in "hundreds of major magazines,
television and radio talk shows around the world."
Grant and murder theorist claim that there is a conspiracy of censorship, and
threats of lawsuits by MS Love. Yet, considering the hundreds of media outlets
they've had access to, the documentary "Kurt and Courtney", books written on the
subject seem to debunk any claim of censorship. To date MS Love has not filed a
suite either.
This information was found on the net mag "Salon".
Remember the Clinton Scandal? Tom Grant did do investigative work for MS Paula
Jones. Some extremely powerful people where involved in this investigation. You
have to wonder why Tom could not get these same people behind his Cobain theory.
paula jones' sleaze finder
A PRIVATE DETECTIVE WHO BELIEVES COURTNEY LOVE
KILLED KURT COBAIN IS NOW OUT TO EXPOSE THE DARK UNDERSIDE
OF BILL CLINTON'S SEXUAL PAST.
BY JONATHAN BRODER | If the Paula Jones sexual misconduct suit against
President Clinton wasn't already unseemly enough, things are about to get a
whole lot seamier: Tom Grant, P.I., is on the case.
Grant, whose clients have included actress/singer Courtney Love, has been
hired by Ms. Jones' lawyers to dig up dirt on the president's sexual past. Given
his track record, who knows what the Beverly Hills private eye may find? Love
hired him three years ago to locate her missing husband, Kurt Cobain. The
heroin-addicted leader of the rock group, Nirvana, eventually turned up dead, a
suicide, Seattle police ruled. Grant, however, believes that Cobain was
murdered, and on his Web site he names Love as the prime suspect. For $18,
Grant will also send you his 150-page file entitled "Kurt Cobain -- suicide or
murder? You decide."
Contacted by Salon in Little Rock, where he's been busy digging for the past
two weeks, the 50-year-old former Los Angeles police detective would not
reveal what he had uncovered so far, but he insisted that his investigation had
been "very productive." Warned Grant: "If Mr. Clinton's lawyers want to play
hardball with Paula Jones, that's just fine. We've got the stuff to play hardball
too."
Other knowledgeable observers are not so sure. Grant has reportedly linked up
with a local private detective named Larry Case, who tried several years ago to
prove that Mr. Clinton was a cocaine addict. They believe Case is leading
Grant down well-worn and discredited paths of rumor and innuendo.
"There are a bunch of people down here who made a profession out of trying to
get sex stories on Clinton," says Gene Lyons, a columnist for the Arkansas
Democrat, and author of a book debunking much of the Whitewater scandal.
"Some of them are wackos, others are political operatives, who have accused
just about every semi-attractive woman who came into Clinton's orbit of being
his lover, of carrying his love-child, you name it. They followed these women
around, ran down to the health department to see what name was on the birth
certificates of their children, quizzed their friends, tried to get them to
corroborate these accusations, then leaked these stories to reporters and sent
them chasing around too.
"Now this guy Grant is trying to do the same work," adds Lyons. "He's doing
the same thing all over again, and he's going to end up with the same thing."
That may not overly concern the people and organizations behind the Paula
Jones lawsuit. Grant's $400-a-day fees are being paid for by the Rutherford
Foundation, the ultra-conservative organization based in Charlottesville, Va.
which is picking up the lawsuit's tab in its entirety. With the discovery phase of
the trial still ongoing, and a trial date set for May, Grant says he may need
"several more months" to run down all his leads.
In her lawsuit, Jones charges that in 1991, while she was working as a lowlevel
state employee, an Arkansas state trooper named Danny Ferguson brought
her to a Little Rock hotel room to meet then-Gov. Clinton. She claims that
Clinton dropped his trousers, exposed himself and asked her to perform oral
sex. In her complaint, she alleges Clinton's genitals had "distinguishing
characteristics."
The Washington Times, owned by the Rev. Sun Myung Moon, claims it has
seen Jones' affidavit and has printed a supposed description of the notorious
"distinguishing characteristics": a unnatural bend in his organ that the paper
suggested may have been caused by a disease. Such cheesy innuendo made the
leap into the more respectable press when The New Yorker ran its own
description of an erect penis, 5 inches in length and the circumference of a
quarter, which leaned to the right.
Clinton has forcefully denied Jones' allegations, saying he does not even
remember meeting her, while some former associates of Jones have disputed
her version of events on the day in question. No matter. With independent
prosecutor Kenneth Starr's investigation of the Whitewater affair becoming
increasingly discredited, Clinton's old political enemies are working to revive
the sexual innuendoes, and are finding a willing audience in Grant.
According to Lyons, who is working on a new book about the campaign of
rumors against Clinton, Grant can call upon an entire parade of dubious
Arkansas characters to help him fill his notebooks. Lyons mentions Connie
Hamsey, a music groupie who has publicly boasted about sleeping with dozens
of rock stars and now claims that Clinton sexually molested her. Another
alleged Clinton victim, Sally Purdue, once ran for the mayoralty of Pine Bluff
and called a news conference where she denied she was a lesbian -- much to the
amazement of the media that never reported she was. Dolly Kyle Browning,
who went to high school with Clinton, has penned a self-published novel about
her alleged 30-year affair with him.
Then there's Larry Nichols, an Arkansas state employee and self-styled secret
agent whom Gov. Clinton fired in the 1980s for making 640 long-distance calls
to the Nicaraguan contras from his office telephone. Nichols fell further afoul
of the Clintons when Mrs. Clinton later represented Nichols' wife in their
divorce proceedings and pursued him for failing to keep up with his alimony
payments. Nichols has since claimed that Clinton was part of the Iran-contra
affair and smuggled drugs from Nicaragua. Nichols also starred in "The Clinton
Chronicles," a film sponsored by Moral Majority founder Rev. Jerry Falwell,
that claims, among other things, that Clinton embezzled millions from the state
government and that he murdered political opponents, including White House
lawyer Vince Foster.
In a 1990 unfair dismissal suit, Nichols named five women with whom Clinton
allegedly conducted affairs and upon whom the priapic governor illegally
lavished state money. All of the women named, including former Miss
Americas, denied Nichols' claims. A local TV anchor, Deborah Matthis, was
also named. According to Lyons, when reporters asked her if she had slept with
Clinton, Matthis, an attractive and irreverent black journalist, replied, "No, but
if I had slept with that fat white boy, he'd still be grinnin'."
Nichols later dropped the suit, admitting that Clinton's political enemies had
put him up to it. That didn't prevent the original charges from resurfacing in
various mainstream national newspapers during the Gennifer Flowers flap in
the 1992 presidential primaries.
This, too, says Lyons, should come as no surprise. For his book, Lyons and
coauthor Joe Conason, a columnist for the New York Observer, have collected
hours of tapes that were inexplicably given to them by Case, the local private
detective now working with Grant. The tapes contain dozens of recorded
conversations with reporters from Newsweek, the Wall Street Journal and other
prestigious media organizations, in which the journalists can be heard pleading
for the nastiest details about Clinton's sexual history, which Case gladly
provides.
"One would have thought that these reporters would have learned the thing that
all reporters should know, and that is that anybody can say anything about
anybody," Lyons said.
That doesn't seem to be stopping Tom Grant or Jones' lawyers. They've learned
another journalistic maxim that sadly is pushing the older standards aside:
Never let the facts stand in the way of an unlikely story, especially if it's sleazy
and it's about the President of the United States.
SALON | Nov. 13, 1997
Nick Broomfield
Yes, Nick Broomfield's movie "Kurt and Courtney" caused a great deal of
controversy when it was released.
"Kurt and Courtney" wasn't the only one of Nick Broomfield's films to cause
controversy. Lily Tomlin, unsuccessfully sued Mr. Broomfield to prevent the release
of film that MS Tomlin felt she was portrayed as paranoid. In a 1994 film Margaret
Thatcher said Mr Broomfield is ``trying his level best to make me look like the
monster I am clearly not''. (1)
You'd have to wonder ( During Kurt and Courtney) about El Duce, who's phrase "if
you give me another beer, I'll tell you more", his strange gestures, and El Duce
doing his best 'Charles Manson' stare during interview. (2) For Mr. Broomfield
there were no questions about this odd character. He placed him in his film and
gave El Duce and his band, the mentors publicity
During a newspaper article Broomfield claimed, that Ms Love was trashing him on
the Howard Stern show. Yet the day of the alleged Love Trashing Ms Love and her
band hole were giving interviews in Toronto. (3)
People wonder why Ms love hasn't sued. Mr. Broomfield could provide an answer.
Though he was worried about the suit being successful at first. Mr. Broomfield said
``All she did, in a way, was publicise the film,''. Why should she do that?
This collection of e-mails is obviously in no way proof that Courtney Love is not
guilty of the claims that Tom Grant has made, and it is not intended to be.
Naturally, Courtney Love's denial means only as much as O.J.'s "did not/would
not/could not" speech, which meant and means nothing. These e-mails have been
put on this page for the reason that people, whether they believe Courtney Love to
be guilty or not guilty, are interested in what she has to say on the matter. Once
again, they are not meant to act as any sort of evidence of any kind. (And needless to
say, it's my opinion that I've given enough proof that people should think twice
before they just jump along with what Grant is telling us all.)
Please be advised that I will not be giving Courtney Love's address out to anyone.
(Not that this matters much, since I don't believe that the address I used has worked
in ages.) I promised my source that I would not; and I really can't understand why
so many people have e-mailed me expecting me to give it out in the first place...
On February 9th I e-mailed Courtney to tell her about this "anti-tom" page of mine.
I wasn't even sure if she still used the addresses that I'd acquired, and if she did I
wasn't even expecting any responses, but I did indeed get them, and have gotten the
'okay' to publish them here.
My original e-mail:
From: Self
To: Courtney Love
Subject: anti-tomgrant page http://www.lookup.com....
Date sent: Fri, 9 Feb 1996 18:20:02 -0500
A friend of mine gave me these two addresses months ago, saying that she had
spoken with Courtney Love about Tom Grant, and going by the descriptions of the
discussions, I doubt that these addresses are fakes. So believing that these are (or
were) Courtney Love's real AOL addresses, I wanted to tell you about my Web page
which tells why Grant's story is WRONG, WRONG, WRONG. I'm also curious
about what you might think of it, but I'm not really expecting any response. The site
is listed in my .sig, as I'm sure you'd like to go see it. I posted about it a little while
ago in the Hole Lotta Love mailing list, and quite frankly am surprised that I've
gotten NO responses from the list either through private e-mail OR in the mailing
list itself!
Yeah, anyway, I know you don't like to chit chat with strangers much, so I'll say
bye...
David
Courtney Love's first response:
From: Courtney Love
Date sent: Sat, 10 Feb 1996 17:02:52 -0500
To: dperle@ix.netcom.com
Subject: Re: anti-tomgrant page http://www.lookup.com....
i cannot get on the net, i will answe r whatever i choose nothing else.
He
does not deserve my energy, hes already destroyed so much- but
advertise that
i WILL respond-being forced to talk ballistics with yr local med
examiner and
forensics w/ yr local chief of police can really make you remeber the
bloody
white sheet under your mattress.
You start yr site, you can post this, i will not respond to flames.
Tjhe man does not like me WOW.
Hes also totally unsueable libving in a garage an driving a used
Datsun-noone in the legit media or world will touch him- hes got
nothing, the
entire Seattle infrastructure would get homicidal, and hed be soooooo
in
trouble- hes not worth my time hes horrible and gross i have a bad
anniversary coming up
no fun...okay bye...Courtney.
From me:
From: Self
To: Courtney Love
Subject: Re: anti-tomgrant page http://www.lookup.com....
Date sent: Sat, 10 Feb 1996 19:23:01 -0500
Heh, you certainly don't have to convince me that Grant has nothing. The horrible
thing is that many people think that he does... -sigh- Did you want me to put that email
(e-mail address excluded, of course) on my web site? It looked like you hinted
that you wanted me to in a couple of places, but it's hard to tell. =) Also, did you
want me to send you a copy of what I have on my site, since you can't get on there
yourself? I got an e-mail yesterday from someone who asked if I was you. I said 'no',
and s/he said that s/he just thought it was odd that someone unconnected to you
would put so much energy into disproving Grant. Just tryin' to do what's right.
One last thing--don't worry about having to answer anything. I'd never dream of
asking you, or anyone in your situation to have to answer 'questions' brought out be
such a disgusting person, tg. But you said to advertise that you will respond, so do
you want me to say anything specific about anything on my page, or in any of the
newsgroups? I'll send out any message you want, or nothing at all...
David
From her:
From: Courtney Love
Date sent: Sat, 17 Feb 1996 10:40:26 -0500
To: dperle@ix.netcom.com
Subject: Re: anti-tomgrant page http://www.lookup.com....
yeah i was advertising that and i probaly wont answer much but id
appreciate
if youd put it on there- gee why would someone devote time to anti tom?
whu
would someone devote time TO him???? duh...thank you clover- id like to
see
whats on his site i am a retard on the newt if you could paste it up
for me-
files suck i cant get them neither- so i can see what shit hes up to id
appreciate itr IMMENSLY clovcobain
From me:
At this point I went to what I call Chris Carmen's "Tom Grant's Web Page O'
Lies," since that's basically what it is. I got all of the most recent versions of
everything there and e-mailed them to Courtney. After doing all of that, this is
basically what I had to say:
From: Self
To: Courtney Love
Subject: My own words...
Date sent: Sat, 17 Feb 1996 18:51:35 -0500
As ludicrous as it is to think that so many people buy into this b.s., THEY DO. As
for my own feelings about you, I don't respect you as much as I used to, basically
because during the last year you've gotten yourself into so much trouble, and that's
really damaged your creditability, especially in this case. While I still like you, I
really understand why many people do not, and it might be because of that that
many Internet users are easier prey to Grant's words. (I WOULD like to commend
you on the fact that I haven't heard any bad stories about you recently. :)
Like I said before, I wouldn't want to belittle you by asking you questions about any
of this. It's my opinion that almost everything that Grant says he is making up, and
anything that he is not making up is either irrelevant to Kurt's death, or taken out
of context. But if you want to say anything of your own for me to put up on my page,
feel free. Most people who believe Grant probably always will, and most people
who've read his stuff and think he's a lunatic probably always will, so it probably
wouldn't make much of a difference. All I know is that many many many people
think that you are a murderer. It's sick and unreasonable, but it's true...
Next I will send you what's on my page. Parts 1 & 2 are my official document (as
official as it can be on the 'Net...) on the matter, and part 3 is someone else's take on
why Grant shouldn't be believed. I'll be adding more notes like those shortly. I'm
running out of space, though, and am in the process of getting my page set up on a
site in the UK. Another Nirvana fan named Sean Green, screen name "Love Buzz",
has basically 'given' me the space on his page over there, and we've added some
pictures of you, Kurt, and Frances. We've also got a nice background over there,
instead of the plain gray that's on mine. But anyway, here we go...
David
Courtney:
From: Courtney Love
Date sent: Mon, 19 Feb 1996 04:48:45 -0500
To: dperle@ix.netcom.com
Subject: Re: anti-tom pg. 1
A . all ill say is this;
Go to the medical examiner . the chief of police, the chief and sgt in
Homicide(because of the high profile of this death they were
involved)- Grant had a PI firm for a gew months he got real luycky. I
couldnt find any lawyers so, hell, i used the yellow pages-he was/is a
failed busines"" man- also slow and inept-the people he consigned in
seattle were slow- I sent someone over to the dealers- asked him had
anyone been by? he said no...alsop lazy- Dylan says he barely loked at
the house-also he never went up to the garage or greenhouse- wich i
specifically asked as it was a "hiding" place for K.-theres nothing
more to say because the actual authorities know all...BTW the 'Rome'
note is xeroxed ....and owned by the SPD- grant (who sells tidbits to
the Star) wANTED PICTURES ,BALLISTICS,FORENSICS FROM ME- I CALLED
KIMBALL-CAMERON ALL OF THEM THEY SAID HE WAS A CRANK AND IGNORE HIM,
IF HE DOES GO TO THE REAL MEDIA-WHO WILL NOT TOUCH HIM A.HE HAS NO
FACTS OTHER THAN HE DOESNT LIKE ME- GEEE! B They get thier fucxking
asses sued to hell-and they know that-thats all i have to say other
than there is a date set to remove his liscence, and of course nooone
will publish his 'Novel" because its full of shit that the med
examiner and cops will vehemently deny-they have all teh evidence
remember?If Tom grant had gotten a hold of a picture of Kurt- wed all
have seen it- Frances too when she grows up-i could NOT take seeing
such a thing, as far as our marriage PLEASE- divorce was NOT an option
to either of us/ we rarely fought and had a great marriage, PERIOD.
goodbye Courtney
Me:
From: Self
To: Courtney Love
Subject: Re: anti-tom pg. 1
Date sent: Mon, 19 Feb 1996 09:51:02 -0500
I keep telling everyone that none of this will get to the courts anyway, because he
knows that he'd be laughed out. I've been putting your e-mails to me on my page,
just so you know. Anyway, all I know is that as stupid as this whole "investigation"
is, it's my opinion that a lot of it can be cleared up by having some of the people
involved (police, Kurt's family, friends...) get together for some sort of press
conference or whatever to very openly say that they've all seen what he's been
saying, and that it's all lies lies lies. I personally squirm everytime I see/hear any
mention of Grant and his "investigation" in mainstream media (it was a blurb on
my local radio station that made me finally create my page on the web), but the
truth of the matter is that he is slowly getting more recognition in the mainstream,
and more and more people are slowly becoming familiar with it all. But that's just
my opinion...
David
Courtney:
From: Courtney Love
Date sent: Mon, 19 Feb 1996 14:24:07 -0500
To: dperle@ix.netcom.com
Subject: Re: anti-tom pg. 1
no hes NOT been in the mainstream media 1st mainstream that touches
him-
DEAD- I will live in a trailor to get my libel suit-they know this you
dont
throw around the highest felony on earth lightly. What would happen if
i went
on Oprah and said Tom Cruise was gay, but had no facts just heard
things id
be in JAIL inside of a year-LIBEL is not protected by 1st amendment-he
has
nothing/ an old datsun lives in his dads ggarage was a CHIP for not
even 6
months before getting fired . I have to appear before the board in la
to
declaim his liscence....why should we-wendy,
Nikolas(smexaminer),Kimball or
Cameron throw a press conference overa wacko thats his WET DREAM, i
cant
believe im even responding to YOU re him-all he has is the net Now if
anyone
has the call letters of any radio stations he was on or dates(its been
just a
few times)Id like to know because ill o after them....thanks Courtney
Me:
From: Self
To: Courtney Love
Subject: Re: anti-tom pg. 1
Date sent: Mon, 19 Feb 1996 16:05:06 -0500
"Mainstream" meaning stuff like radio...some magazines. He's had that KROQ
interview that he's gloating about, and no doubt other radio stations around the
country are bringing it up. Naturally magazines like Time and Newsweek and shit
wouldn't go near him. People with brains know exactly why, but then again, when
we're talking about Grant's followers we're not exactly talking about people with
brains, are we...
> why should we-wendy, Nikolas(smexaminer),Kimball or
Simple--because people think he's right. A lot of people. As pathetic and disgusting
as it sounds, they do.
> Now if anyone has the call letters of any radio stations he was on > or dates(its
been just a few times)Id like to know because ill o > after them....thanks Courtney
Yeah, in that shit I sent you, he talks all about when he was on KROQ. In fact, he
says that your "representatives" took care of not having Grant back on their
morning show, so I assume you already know all about that.
Getting back to the press conference...hey, I'm 18, what the fuck do I know. =) It's
just that the Grant-followers seem to have no common sense, and it seems that the
only way for them to begin to see behind Grant would be for the people involved to
say, "Hey, guys, it's us, he's lying." Whatever. You know what's best. I just want to
help serve as your "informant" about the people on the 'Net, and how they perceive
all of this. And while I'm certainly not alone with my disgust of Grant, we seem to
be in the minority.
I hope I'm not upsetting you or anything...or sounding like I'm more important than
I am... This sure isn't how I'd choose to leave Kurt's memory. But everytime I see
Grant's name...UGH!
David
After that I didn't receive any more mail regarding that. At the end of February, a
correspondence of mine sent me copies of the different parts of a new article of a
magazine called "High Times". It deals with Grant, Hank Harrison (Courtney
Love's father, for those who don't know), and some other stuff. Harrison addresses
some things that Courtney Love has said about him, such as claiming that he
molested her as a child and gave her acid, and he says that none of that is true. I
won't be putting that stuff of his on this site (most likely), but I forwarded those
messages to Courtney, and this is what she had to say about it all:
From: Courtney Love
Date sent: Wed, 28 Feb 1996 20:49:01 -0500
To: dperle@ix.netcom.com
Subject: Re: (Fwd) High Times articles (3)
high times smoked a few joints too many...get to the part about
the"dream
machine" hooboy! Allso Hank OWNING something EG a House? HA! The guy
is on
WELFARE I've NEVER lived with him and have met him about ten times in
my
life. Yukky- its about my mother w/ him also he thinks that through me
he was
some conduit that gave Kurt his Voice so ultimately this insane
megalamaniac-
says that...KURT is really HANK-eg Voice Of A Generation rather than
pathetic
parasite/petty thief/child molester/All TRANSCRIPTS OF HIS CUSTODY
BATTLE
WITH MY MOTHER ARE PUBLIC RECORD EX GIRLFRIENDS/VARIOUS SCENESTERS
TESTIFY
THAT HE MOLESTED ME AS AN INFANT AND GAVE ME ACID PUBLICLY/ Not a
pretty
detail but anyone in the bay area can find them 1968-Risi/vs harrison
or
State vs Harrison.....hes the lowest blowhole cretin, his mother took
the
stand ccused him of some sick shit in that transcript- he was not
allowed to
EVER be near me my entire life by ourt order in the 60s! HARSH! Even
Molester/incest protaganists get a monitered day here and ther so fill
in the
blanks bout the things he did to the infant child of a weathy woman who
slept
with him once dosed on acid. Him and Tom Grant are peas in a pod-
unsuable,
and uselesss- im not angry- its too typical, ba bing he hit the
jackpot.....just gross.
Here's another thing that I wanted to mention about Hank. In that article he clearly
says that he never met Kurt Cobain. Shortly after Kurt's suicide, there was this
prime-time tabloid/magazine show on FOX that only lasted a few episodes, and one
episode was dedicated to Kurt; you know, the suicide... That was the first time I saw
Mr. Harrison. On that show he talked about how he had been corresponding often
with Kurt, either over AOL or CompuServe...one of those two services. But now he
says that they never met, never spoke. Is Harrison a creditable person? I think not.
Anyway, she wrote this back to me after I sent her the most recent (at that time)
version of my document, which had been updated a lot since the original copy that I
gave her:
From: Courtney Love
Date sent: Tue, 12 Mar 1996 03:28:08 -0500
To: dperle@ix.netcom.com
Subject: Re: anti-tom II
you can post this;
In order for me to revoke Grants liscence I haave to goto CPublic
Affairs
and be face to face with the loon.
I have no problem with it-my lawyers wrote the Public Affairs people
and
think its sorta sadistic aftere what this guys putting
us(Bean,Brieann,Wendy,Kim,Me,Rosemary) through-but if it takes being in
the
same room i dont care-hes broken every law and statute pertaining to
mPrivatee Investigation. They are all Crazed-these conspiracy people-I
dont
care,oh BTW the Lexus? Puhleese! We went out one daay bought a eally
spendy
black car-drove it around got totally stared at and felt mortified like
we
were sellouts- so we returned it within 18 hours of buting it.Ok?
whoopy. As
Ive said If the Med Examiner or the Police felt anything contrary they
wouldnt hesitate to jump on it, I called one of the seaargeants when
Grant
started his big bingo$$$$ thing-worried-DID something wierd happen? He
said
im quoting"Courtney if you walked in here right now and said everything
this
man says is gospel we would tell you to take a xanax and go home-what
are you
going to tell us that he doesnt LIKE you"-hes insane take care of your
baby
and let go of his bullshit" UOTE...ok? thanks CLC
Hank Harrison
Bio dad
Courtney's father Hank Harrison, has leveled charges against his daughter and
shows concern that she maybe involved in Kurt's "murder". First we have to look at
the man making the allegations.
We have his response to Courtney when she talks less than glowingly about her
childhood or him, ``Keep on bad-rapping me and I'll keep kicking your ass.".(1) I
believe that this "ass kicking" means he will continue to lay charges of murder.
He "disappeared" in 1995 and the Los Altos Sheriffs Dept. was trying to find him,
because of his dogs mauled a women. DA Tom Booth told a reporter, ``We haven't
been able to find him," and continued ``He is a loud, vulgar, glib-tongued charmer.
Our police went to where he said he would be to take the dogs and have them put
down. But he'd gone. If you find him, let us know."(2)
His ex-wife Linda (and Courtney's mom) says their daughter was the result of a date
rape, at a party for Dizzy Gillespie. Their marriage lasted only two years, and she
filed a legal objection to him visiting Courtney.(3)
What about Hank allegedly giving Courtney LSD when she was two, and disciplined
Courtney with pit bulls.(4)
I am sure that Hank would adamantly disavow all of this. What about two quotes
attributed to him several years apart about Courtney?
In the first story his says he is very concerned about drug users and suicide. He
wanted to start the "Kurt Cobain Foundation for Suicide Prevention". He also said
that, one of the last times he saw Kurt and Courtney together they appeared "really
happy. This was not a Sid and Nancy deal. They really loved each other." (5)
Give a few years and no money, now he says, ``I also have very, very dark suspicions
about what went on (with Kurt's death) because of my real experience with
Courtney."(6)
Say what?!?! What caused the change? At any rate all of this should cause us to
look as his claims with a jaded eye.
Sunday, July 20, 2008
Friday, July 11, 2008
complt wrks of NIRVANA
NIRVANA...
Blew
Album: Bleach
Time: 2:54
If you wouldn't mind I would like it blew
If you wouldn't mind I would like it loose
If you wouldn't care I would like to leave
If you wouldn't mind I would like to breathe
Is there another reason for your stain
Could you believe him when you discussed his stain?
Here is another word that rhymes with shame
You could do anything
Floyd The Barber
Album: Bleach
Time: 2:18
Bell on the door rings come on in
Floyd observes my hairy chin
Sit down in the chair don't be afraid
Steaming hot towel on my face
I was shaved
I was shamed
I was shaved
Barney ties me to the chair
I can't see I'm really scared
Floyd breathes hard, I hear a zip
Pee-Pee pressed against my lips
I was shaved
I was shamed
I was shaved
I sense others in the room
Opie, Aunt Bea I presume
They take turns and cut me up
I die smothered in Aunt Bee's muff...
I was shamed
I was shamed
I was shaved
About a Girl
Album: Bleach
Time: 2:49
I need an easy friend
I do... with an ear to lend
I do... think you fit this shoe
I do... won't you have a clue
I'll take advantage while
You hang me out to dry
But I can't see you every night
Free
I'm standing in your line
I do... hope you have the time
I do... pick a number too
I do... keep a date with you
School
Album: Bleach
Time: 2:42
Won't you believe it
It's just my luck
No recess
You're in high school again
Love Buzz
Album: Bleach
Time: 3:35
Would you believe me when I tell you
You are the queen of my heart
Please don't deceive me when I hurt you
Just ain't the way it seems
Can you feel my love buzz
Originally by Shocking Blue
Paper Cuts
Album: Bleach
Time: 4:06
When I'm feeling tired
She pushed food through the door
And I crawl towards the crack of light
Sometimes I can't find my way
Newspapers spread around
Soaking all that they can
A cleaning is due again
--a good hosing down
The lady whom I feel maternal love for
Cannot look me in the eyes
But I see hers and they are blue
And they cock and twist and masturbate
I said so
Nirvana
Black windows of paint
I scratched with my nails
I see others just like me
Why do they not try to escape?
They bring out the older ones
They point in my way
They come with a flash of light
And take my family away
And very later I have learned to
Accept some friends of ridicule
My whole existence is for your amusement
And that is why I'm here with you!
To take you with me
You're right
Nirvana
Negative Creep
Album: Bleach
Time: 2:56
This is out of our reach... and it's grown
This is getting to be... drone
I'm a negative creep and I'm stoned!
Daddy's little girl ain't a girl no more
This is out of our range... and it's crude
This is getting to be... like drone
I'm a negative creep and I'm stoned!
Fuck! Yeah! Drone! Stoned!
Scoff
Album: Bleach
Time: 4:10
In my eyes
I'm not lazy
In my face
It's not over
In your room
I'm not older
In your eyes
I'm not worth it
Gimme back my alcohol
Give me all your...
Swap Meet
Album: Bleach
Time: 3:03
They lead a lifetime that is comfortable
They travel far to keep their stomachs full
They make their living off of arts and crafts
They kind with seashells driftwood and burlap
They make a deal when they come to town
The Sunday swap meet is a battle ground
She loves him more than he will ever know
He loves her more than he will ever show
--Keeps his cigarettes close to his heart
--Keeps her photographs close to her heart
--Keeps the bitterness close to the heart
Mr. Moustache
Album: Bleach
Time: 3:24
Fill me in on your new vision
Wake me up with indecision
Help me trust your mighty wisdom
Yes I eat cow - I am not proud.
Show me how you question, question
Lead the way to my temptations
Take my hand and give it cleaning
Yes I eat cow - I am not proud.
Is he in an easychair?
--Poop as hard as a rock.
I don't like you anyway
--Seal it in a box
I'm new [Now you]
I'm who?
I'm you
Sifting
Album: Bleach
Time: 5:22
Afraid to grade
Wouldn't it be fun?
Cross, self loss
Wouldn't it be fun?
Wet your bed
Wouldn't it be fun?
Some fear none [Sun felt numb]
Wouldn't it be fun?
Your eyes... Teacher said,
Your eyes... Preacher said,
"Don't have nothing for you"
Spell the smell
Wouldn't it be fun?
Search for church
Wouldn't it be fun?
Wet your bed
Wouldn't it be fun?
Cold in gold [Cold in coals]
Wouldn't it be fun?
Big Cheese
Album: Bleach
Time: 3:42
Big cheese Make me
Mine says, "Go to the office"
Big cheese Make me
Mine says, what the hell?
Black is black, no trading back
We were enemies
Show you all what a man is [Sure you are, but what am I?]
Big lies make mine
Mine says "Go to office"
Big cheese Make me
Message? What is it?
Black is black, no trading back
We were enemies
She eats glue, how bout you?
Downer
Album: Bleach, Incesticide
Time: 1:43
Portray sincerity
Act out of loyalty
Defend your true country
Wish away the pain
Hand out lobotomies
To save little families
Surrealistic fantasy
Bland boring plain
Hold me down in restitution
Living out your date with fusion
Is the whole fleece shun in master?
Don't feel guilty, master writing
Somebody said that they're not much like I am
I know I can
Make enough of the words for you to follow along
I sink and then some
Slippery pessimist hypocrite master
Conservative communist apocalyptic bastard
Thank you dear God for putting me on this Earth
I feel very privileged in debt for my thirst
Smells Like Teen Spirit
Album: Nevermind
Time: 5:01
Load up on guns and bring your friends
It's fun to lose and to pretend
She's over bored and self assured
Oh no, I know a dirty word
Hello, hello, hello, how low?
(chorus)
With the lights out it's less dangerous
Here we are now, entertain us
I feel stupid and contagious
Here we are now, entertain us
A mulatto
An albino
A mosquito
My Libido
Yay!
I'm worse at what I do best
And for this gift I feel blessed
Our little group has always been
And always will until the end
Hello, hello, hello, how low?
(chorus)
And I forget just why I taste
Oh yeah, I guess it makes me smile
I found it hard, it was hard to find
Oh well, whatever, nevermind
hello, hello, hello, how low?
(chorus)
With the lights out it's less dangerous
Here we are now, entertain us
I feel stupid and contagious
Here we are now, entertain us
A mulatto
An albino
A mosquito
My Libido
A denial...
In Bloom
Album: Nevermind
Time: 4:15
Sell the kids for food
--weather changes moods
Spring is here again
--reproductive glands
(chorus)
He's the one
Who likes all our pretty songs
And he likes to sing along
And he likes to shoot his gun
But he don't know what it means
Don't know what it means
And I say... yeaahh
(repeat)
We can have some more -- nature is a whore
Bruises on the fruit -- tender age in bloom
(chorus)
Come As You Are
Album: Nevermind
Time: 3:39
Come as you are, as you were,
As I want you to be
As a friend, as a friend, as an old enemy
Take your time, hurry up
The choice is yours, don't be late
Take a rest as a friend as an old memoria
Come dowsed in mud, soaked in bleach
As I want you to be
As a trend, as a friend, as an old memoria
And I swear that I don't have a gun
No I don't have a gun
Breed
Album: Nevermind
Time: 3:04
I don't care...
Care if I'm old
I don't mind...
Mind, don't have a mind
Get away...
Away from your home
I'm afraid...
Afraid of a ghost
Even if you have
Even if you need
I don't mean to stare
We don't have to breed
We can plant a house
We can build a tree
I don't even care
We could have all three
She said...
Lithium
Album: Nevermind
Time: 4:17
I'm so happy 'cause today
I've found my friends ...
They're in my head
I'm so ugly, but that's okay, 'cause so are you...
We've broken our mirrors
Sunday morning is everyday for all I care...
And I'm not scared
Light my candles in a daze...
'Cause I've found god - yeah, yeah, yeah
I'm so lonely but that's okay I shaved my head...
And I'm not sad
And just maybe I'm to blame for all I've heard...
But I'm not sure
I'm so excited, I can't wait to meet you there...
But I don't care
I'm so horny but that's okay...
My will is good - yeah, yeah, yeah
I like it - I'm not gonna crack
I miss you - I'm not gonna crack
I love you - I'm not gonna crack
I kill you - I'm not gonna crack
Polly
Album: Nevermind, Incesticide [as "(New Wave) Polly"]
Time: 2:57
Polly wants a cracker
Think I should get off of her first
I think she wants some water
To put out the blow torch
(chorus)
Isn't me
Haven't seed
Let me clip
Your dirty wings
Let me take a ride
Cut yourself
I want some help
Please myself
I've got some rope
You have been told
I promise you
I have been true
Let me take a ride
Cut yourself
I want some help
Please myself
Polly wants a cracker
Maybe she would like some food
She asks me to untie her
A chase would be nice for a few
(chorus)
Polly says her back hurts
And she's just as bored as me
She caught me off my guard
It amazes me, the will of instinct
(chorus)
Territorial Pissings
Album: Nevermind
Time: 2:23
"Come on people now, smile on your brother, everybody get together,
try to love one another right now..."
When I was an alien, cultures weren't opinions
Gotta find a way to find a way when I'm there
Gotta find a way - a better way -
I had better wait
Never met a wise man, if so it's a woman
"Just because you're paranoid
Don't mean they're not after you."
Drain You
Album: Nevermind
Time: 3:44
One baby to another says,
I'm lucky to have met you
I don't care what you think
Unless it is about me
It is now my duty to completely drain you
A travel through a tube
And end up in your infection
Chew your meat for you
Pass it back and forth
In a passionate kiss
From my mouth to yours
Because I like you
With eyes so dilated,
I've became your pupil
You've taught me everything
Without a poison apple
The water is so yellow, I'm a healthy student
Indebted and so grateful -
Vacuum out the fluids
...Sloppy lips to lips
You're my vitamins because I'm like you
Lounge Act
Album: Nevermind
Time: 2:36
Truth covered in security
I can't let you smother me
I'd like to but it couldn't work
Trading off and taking turns
I don't regret a thing
And I've got this friend, you see
Who makes me feel and I
Wanted more than I could steal
I'll arrest myself, I'll wear a shield
I'll go out of my way to prove I still
Smell her on you
Don't tell me what I wanna hear
Afraid of never knowing fear
Experience anything you need
I'll keep fighting jealousy
Until it's fucking gone
I'll go out of my way to make you a deal
We've make a pact to learn from who
Ever we want without new rules
We'll share what's lost and what we grew
They'll go out of their way
To prove they still
Smell her on you
Stay Away
Album: Nevermind
Time: 3:32
Monkey see, monkey do
(I don't know why)
I'd rather be dead than cool
(I don't know why)
Every line ends in rhyme
(I don't know why)
Less is more, love is blind
(I don't know why)
Stay away
Give an inch, take a smile
(I don't know why)
Fashion shits, fashion style
(I don't know why)
Throw it out and keep it in
(I don't know why)
Have to have poison skin
(I don't know why)
Stay away
God is gay
On A Plain
Album: Nevermind
Time: 3:14
I'll start this off without any words
I got so high that I scratched 'til I bled
I love myself better than you
I know it's wrong so what should I do?
The finest day that I ever had
Was when I learned to cry on command
I love myself better than you
I know it's wrong so what should I do?
I'm on a plain
I can't complain
My mother died every night
It's safe to say don't quote me on that
I love myself better than you
I know it's wrong so what should I do?
The black sheep got blackmailed again
Forgot to put on the zip code
I love myself better than you
I know it's wrong so what should I do?
I'm on a plain
I can't complain
Somewhere I have heard this before
In a dream my memory has stored
As a defense I'm neutered and spayed
What the hell am I trying to say
It is now time to make it unclear
To write off lines that don't make sense
I love myself better than you
I know it's wrong so what should I do?
One more special message to go
And then I'm done then I can go home
I love myself better than you
I know it's wrong so what should I do?
I'm on a plain
I can't complain
Something In The Way
Album: Nevermind
Time: 3:48
Underneath the bridge
The tarp has sprung a leak
And the animals I've trapped
Have all become my pets
And I'm living off of grass
And the drippings from the ceiling
It's ok to eat fish
'Cause they don't have any feelings
Something in the way
Endless Nameless
Album: Nevermind (hidden track)
Time: 7:21
Silence
Here I am
Here I am
Silent
Bright and clear
It's what I am
I have
Died
uhhhh (or mother? x4)
uhhhh
uhhhh
uhhhh
Death
With violence
Excitment
Right here
Died
Go to hell
Here I am
Right here
Ow
No mas
No mas
No mas
No mas
Death
Is what I am
Go to hell
Go to jail
In back of that
Crime
Here I am
Take a chance
Dead
Die
Other interpretations possible.
Dive
Album: Incesticide, Hormoaning EP
Time: 3:53
Pick me, Pick me yeah
Let alone, I'll signal
I lease it, lease, yeah
Everyone is how old
Pick me, pick me yeah
Everyone is waiting
Pick me pick me yeah
You can leave 'em baby
hey
dive, dive, dive, dive in me
Dive in me
Kiss this, kiss that yeah
Let alone, I'll signal
I lease ah, lease, yeah
You can be my hero
Pick me, pick me yeah
Everyone is waiting
Hit me, hit me yeah
I'm real good at hatin'
Hey
Dive, dive, dive, dive in me
Dive in me
Dive in me
---[The following are from some live versions.]
Take me, take me, yeah
Let along you signal
At least, at least, yeah
Everyone is hollow
Take me, take me, yeah
Everyone is naked
At least, at least, yeah
You can even swallow
Lick this, kiss that, yeah
Everyone is naked
At least, at least, yeah
Everyone is sated
Take this, take that, yeah
Everyone is hollow
At least, at least, yeah
You can eat my marrow
Prick me, prick me, yeah
Sliver
Album: Incesticide
Time: 2:12
Mom and dad went to a show
they dropped me off at Grandpa Joe's
I kicked and screamed, said please no
Grandma take me home
Had to eat my dinner there
Mashed potatos and stuff like that
I couldn't chew my meat good
Grandma take me home
Said well good just stop your crying
Go outside and ride your bike
Thats what i did, i kicked my toe
Grandma take me home
after dinner, I had ice cream
Fell asleep, and watched TV
I woke up in my mother's arms
Grandma take me home
I wanna be alone
Stain
Album: Incesticide
Time: 2:37
Well he never bleeds and he never fucks
And he never leaves 'cause he's got bad luck.
Well he never reads and he never draws
And he never sleeps 'cause he's got bad blood yeah
I'm a stain, I'm a stain, I'm a stain, I'm a stain
Been A Son
Album: Incesticide
Time: 1:53
She should have stayed away from friends
She should have had more time to spend
She should have died when she was born
She should have worn the crown of thorns
She should have been a son
She should have been a son
She should have been a son
She should have been a son
She should have made her mother proud
She should have stood out in the crowd
She should have had another chance
She should have fallen on her stance
She should have been a son
She should have been a son
She should have been a son
She should have been a son
Turnaround
Album: Incesticide, Hormoaning EP
Time: 2:17
Take a step outside yourself
And turn around
Take a look at who you are
It's pretty scary
So silly
Revolting
You're not much
You can't do anything
Take a step outside the city
And turn around
Take a look at what you are
It is revolting
You're really nowhere
So wasteful
So foolish
Poppycock
Who said don't look back?
Don't believe 'em
Go for that crazy sounding restaurant
'Cause they're gonna try and get behind you
Don't you let them do it
You know what I'm talking about?
You hear me talking?
You hear me talking?
It's pretty scary it's so revolting
Take a step outside the country
And turn around
Take a look at what you are
It is amazing
Take a good look
You're no big deal
You're so petty
It's lots
Take a step outside the planet
Turn around and around
Take a look at where you are
It's pretty scary
Originally by Devo
Molly's Lips
Album: Incesticide, Hormoaning EP
Time: 1:51
She said
She'd take me anywhere
She'd take me anywhere
As long as she stays with me
She said
She'd take me anywhere
She'd take me anywhere
As long as I stayed clean
Kiss kiss
Molly's lips
Kiss kiss
Molly's lips
Kiss kiss
Molly's lips
Kiss kiss
Originally by The Vaselines
Son Of A Gun
Album: Incesticide, Hormoaning EP
Time: 2:47
Up up up and down
Turn turn turnaround
Round round roundabout
And over again
Gun gun son of a gun
You are the only one
Makes any difference what I say
The sun shines in the bedroom
When we play
The raining always starts
When you go away
Originally by The Vaselines
Beeswax
Album: Incesticide, Hormoaning EP
Time: 2:47
Why doesn't she need him for a father?
Not only maidens can occupy my shack
Goring my manhood turns a man off.
Like Pepe LePew would say,
Hey, hey, hey! -- then we clash!
I got my diddly spayed
She laughs about it.
Shrinking inflections if the wind blows just right.
Jacking themselves off polyester.
I wanna jump, this isn't right!
Hey, when am I getting it back?
I don't know why,
I got a joke too silly to say.
Don't touch the balls.
I got a dick, Dick -- hear my fucking hate!
If you're wondering, it's gaining monthly. (If your world is getting ugly)
Fiberglass insulated, the sky is cotton candy.
Spawning downstream, El Rancho Ovulate.
Feeling can't help me romp
Bill just fuck me, take me anal
Billy's slit reminds me of someone.
I'm sick of paying for the love boat
Tony and Tenille say wanna jump rope
And I say look!
I got my penis spayed,
I got a little tail,
I got my dingaling spayed
...nothing hard
I gotta be around pussy
Don't let me fall
I got a heh-heh...well you can't live
We got my dingaling spayed
When ya gonna learn?
Mexican Seafood
Album: Incesticide
Time: 1:52
Uh, the itchy flakes, it isnt good for me.
Cure, with gels and creams, its entertainin'
True, fungus mold is my attraction
Hope, its only a, a yeast infection
Only hurts when i, hurts when i pee
Only hurts when i, hurts when i sing
Oh, its in my bed, just consists of lice, bugs and fleas
Beneath the mucus stain the vaseline its an...
Hope its only a, a yeast infection
Only hurts when i, hurts when i pee
Only hurts when i, hurts when i sing
Hairspray Queen
Album: Incesticide
Time: 4:12
I was young my an' you were mine.
My enemy you were, my an' i was young.
Your enemy you were, my an' i was young.
Your enemy you were, my an' i was once.
You ene...
You rang
Your ears rang
I was young my an' you were mine.
My enemy you were, my an' i was young.
Your enemy you were, my an' i was young.
Your enemy you were, my an' i was once.
You ene...
At night wishfull godess
At night crystal locket
At night mouth of almounds
At sight a fish full of garbage
At night disco god.
I was young my an' you were mine.
My enemy you were, my an' i was young.
Your enemy you were, my an' i was young.
Your enemy you were, my an' i was once.
You ene...
At night the wishfull godess
At night crystal locket
At night mouth of almounds
At sight a fish full of garbage
At night disco god.
I was young my an' you were mine.
My enemy you were, my an' i was young.
Your enemy you were, my an' i was young.
Your enemy you were, my an' i was once.
You ene...
At night she was so modest
At night crystal locket
At night mouth of almounds
At sight a fish full of garbage
At night disco god.
Ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah
Ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah
Ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah
(interesting erotic noises)
Aero Zeppelin
Album: Incesticide
Time: 4:39
What's the season of love if you can't have everything
what's the reason of love if you can lose everything
what's the meaning of love, it's a crime if anything
what's the meaning of love, it's a crime, it's a crime
How can a culture can forget it's plan of yesterday
and you swear it's not a trend, doesn't matter anyways
there's no need to talk to friends, nothing new is everyday.
you could shit upon the stairs, you'll be friends
All the kids will eat it up, if it's packaged properly.
Should it subtlely irritate, keep it movin' equally.
All I know is just the fact, where the world is nowadays
An idea is what we lack, doesn't matter anyway
All the kids will eat it up, if it's packaged properly
Still the son will imitate, keep it fallin' equally
All i know is just the facts, where the world is nowadays
An idea is what we lack, doesn't matter anyway
Big Long Now
Album: Incesticide
Time: 5:01
It's not cold enough
Please put this side up
She is moving through
Can we show our faces now?
I'm not interesting
She's not turning green
Shameful as it seems
Can we show our faces now?
Endless climb
I am blind
Why can't I leave?
Color blind
Speaking a phrase
Instantly grown
I am blind
Waiting in line
Why am I sure?
Aneurysm
Album: Incesticide (remixed version), Hormoaning EP
Time: 4:36
Come on over and do the twist
Overdo it and have a fit
Love you so much it makes me sick
Come on over and do the twist
Beat me outta me (Beat it, beat it)
Come on over and do the twist
Over-do it and have a fit
Over-do it and have a fit
Love you so much it makes me sick
Come on over and shoot the shit
She keeps it pumpin' straight to my heart
Serve The Servants
Album: In Utero
Time: 3:34
Teenage angst has paid off well
Now I'm bored and old
Self-Appointed judges judge
More than they have sold
If she floats than she is not
A witch like we had thought
A down payment on another
One at salem's lot
Serve the servants - Oh no
That legendary divorce is such a bore
As my bones grew they did hurt
They hurt really bad
I tried hard to have a father
But instead I had a dad
I just want you to know that I
Don't hate you anymore
there is nothing I could say
that I haven't thought before
Serve the servants - oh no
That legendary divorce is such a bore
Scentless Apprentice
Album: In Utero
Time: 3:47
Like most babies smell like butter
his smell smelled like no other
he was born scentless and senseless
he was born a scentless apprentice
Go away - get away, get away, get a-way
every wet nurse refused to feed him
electrolytes smell like semen
I promise not to sell your perfumed secrets
there are countless formulas for pressing flowers
I lie in the soll and fertilize mushrooms
Leaking out gas fumes are made into perfume
You can't fire me because I quit
Throw me in the fire and I won't throw a fit
Heart-shaped Box
Album: In Utero
Time: 4:39
She eyes me like a Pisces when I am weak
I've been locked inside your Heart-Shaped box four whole weeks
I've been drawn into your magnet tar pit trap
I wish I could eat your cancer when you turn black
Hey
Wait
I've got a new complaint
Forever in debt to your priceless advice
Hey
Wait
I've got a new complaint
Forever in debt to your priceless advice
Hey
Wait
I've got a new complaint
Forever in debt to your priceless advice
Your advice
Meat-eating orchids forgive no one just yet
Cut myself on angel's hair and baby's breath
Broken hymen of your highness I'm left black
Throw down your umbilical noose so I can climb right back
Hey
Wait
I've got a new complaint
Forever in debt to your priceless advice
Hey
Wait
I've got a new complaint
Forever in debt to your priceless advice
Hey
Wait
I've got a new complaint
Forever in debt to your priceless advice
Your advice
She eyes me like a Pisces when I am weak
I've been locked inside your Heart-Shaped box four whole weeks
I've been drawn into your magnet tar pit trap
I wish I could eat your cancer when you turn black
Hey
Wait
I've got a new complaint
Forever in debt to your priceless advice
Hey
Wait
I've got a new complaint
Forever in debt to your priceless advice
Hey
Wait
I've got a new complaint
Forever in debt to your priceless advice
Your advice
Your advice
Your advice
Rape Me
Album: In Utero
Time: 2:49
Rape me,
Rape me my friend
Rape me,
Rape me again
I'm not the only one
Hate me,
Do it and do it again.
Waste me,
Rape me my friend.
I'm not the only one
My favorite inside source
I'll kiss your open sores
Appreciate your concern
You'll always stink and burn
Rape me,
Rape me my friend
Rape me,
Rape me again
I'm not the only one
Rape me...
Frances Farmer Will Have Her Revenge On Seattle
Album: In Utero
Time: 4:07
It's so relieving to know that you're leaving as soon as you get paid
It's so relaxing to hear you're asking wherever you get your way
I's so soothing to know that you'll sue me,
this is starting to sound the same
I miss the comfort in being sad
In her false withness, we hope you're still with us,
to see if they float or drown
Our favorite paitent, A display of patience,
disease-covered Puget Sound
She'll come back as fire, to burn all the liars,
and leave a blanket of ash on the ground
I miss the comfort in being sad
Dumb
Album: In Utero
Time: 2:29
I'm not like them
But I can pretend
The sun is gone
But I have a light
The day is done
But I'm having fun
I think I'm dumb
or maybe just happy
Think I'm just happy
my heart is broke
But I have some glue
help me inhale
And mend it with you
We'll float around
And hang out on clouds
Then we'll come down
And have a hangover... have a hangover
Skin the sun
Fall asleep
Wish away
The soul is cheap
Lesson learned
Wish me luck
Soothe the burn
Wake me up
I'm not like them
But I can pretend
The sun is gone
But I have a light
The day is done
But I'm having fun
I think I'm dumb
Very Ape
Album: In Utero
Time: 1:55
I am buried up to my neck in
Contradictionary flies
I take pride as the king of illiterature
I'm very ape and very nice
If you ever need anything please don't hesitate
to ask someone else first
I'm too busy acting like I'm not naive.
I've seen it all I was here first
Out of the ground
Into the sky
Out of the sky
Into the dirt
Milk It
Album: In Utero
Time: 3:52
I am my own parasite
I don't need a host to live
We feed off of each other
We can share our endorphns
Doll steak, test meat
I won my own pet virus
I get to pet and name her
Her milk is my shit
My shit is her milk
Doll steak, test meat
Look on the bright side is suicide
Lost eyesight I'm on your side
Angel left wing, right wing, broken wing
Lack of iron and/or sleeping
Protector of the kennel
Ecto-plasma
Ecto-skeletal
Obituary birthday
Your scent is still here in my place of recovery
Pennyroyal Tea
Album: In Utero
Time: 3:36
I'm on my time with everyone
I have very bad posture
Sit and drink Pennyroyal Tea
Distill the life that's inside of me
Sit and drink Pennyroyal tea
I'm anemic royalty
Give me a Leonard Cohen afterworld
So I can sigh eternally
I'm so tired I can't sleep
I'm a liar and a thief
Sit and drink Pennyroyal Tea
I'm anemic royalty
I'm on warm milk and laxatives
Cherry-flavored antacids
Radio Friendly Unit Shifter
Album: In Utero
Time: 4:49
Use just once and destroy
Invasion of our piracy
Afterbirth of a nation
Starve without your skeleton key
I love you for what I am not
I do not want what I have got
A blanket acne'ed with ciggarette burns
Speak at once while taking turns
Second-rate third degree burns
What is wrong with me
What is what I need
What do I think I think
This had nothing to do with what you think
If you ever think at all
Bi-polar opposites attract
All of a sudden my water broke
Hate, hate your enemies
Save, save your friends
Find, find your place
Speak, speak the truth
Tourette's
Album: In Utero
Time: 1:33
Suggested Lyrics
"...Moderate Rock..."
May day, every day, my day
Could've had a heart attack, my heart
We don't know anything, my heart.
We all want something fair, my heart.
Hey!
Hey!
Heyyyyyyy! Heyyyyy! Heyyyyy!
Out of town, out of sight (fire), is my heart.
Queen of lies, today, my heart
One more on the phone, my heart
One more at the door of my heart.
Hey!
Hey!
Heyyyyyyyyyyy!
Mean heart, cold heart, cold heart, cold heart
Cold heart, cold heart, cold heart, cold heart -- uhhhhhhh!
All Apologies
Album: In Utero
Time: 3:50
What else should I be
All apologies
What else should I say
Everyone is gay
What else could I write
I don't have the right
What else should I be
All apologies
In the sun
In the sun I feel as one
In the sun
In the sun
I'm married
buried
I wish I was like you
Easily amused
Find my nest of salt
Everything is my fault
I'll take all the blame
Aqua seafoam shame
Sunburn with freezeburn
Choking on the ashes of her enemy
All in all is all we are
Gallons Of Rubbing Alcohol Flow Through The Strip
Album: In Utero: The Pachyderm Sessions
Time: 7:33
It hurts when you have to press that dull little thing
that you're only supposed to use once and then discard.
Where do you put it? In the garbage can, my honest friend.
My shyness, pet her flow.
She's only been five months late,
even though we haven't had sex for a week.
A meal a day, a meal, I say.
And my heart's made my....
Somebody else already used the word aurora borealis.
She was tied up in chains, and Sam had helped her in the freezer.
She's only five weeks late,
and I haven't had a date forever...
ever...ever...forever!
Wish I had more...more opportunity,
more chances to remember some things
so I couldn't have so much pressure on my...
on my...on my, um...ah, on my...um...um...head.
We'd have so much more diversity,
and so much more input, so much more creative flow,
if we had someone in school, a (GIT)...
GIT...geeks...in...town.
Ha!...Come on, Dave, think of one...
Girls In Trouble
It should be GIC, geeks with Charvels
No, GWC
Fuck, man, this is a waste of time!
(laughs) One more solo? Yeahhhhhhhhh! Yeaaaahhhhh!
You're personally responsible for...
the entire strip...to be washed away...
cleansed...as if gallons of, um, rubbing alcohol
flowed through the strip and were set on fire.
It didn't just singe the hair, it made it straight.
And then Perry Ellis came along with his broom,
and his...silk...
and he...he erected a beautiful city...
a city of stars.
Jesus Don't Want Me For A Sunbeam
Album: Unplugged
Time: ??
Jesus, don't want me for a sunbeam
Sunbeams are never made like me
Don't expect me to cry,
For all the reasons you had to die
Don't ever ask your love of me.
Don't expect me to cry
Don't expect me to lie
Don't expect me to die for me.
Originally by The Vaselines
The Man Who Sold The World
Album: Unplugged
Time: ?
We passed upon the stair, we spoke of was and when
Although I wasn't there, he said I was his friend
Which came as some surprise I spoke into his eyes
I thought you died alone, a long long time ago
Oh no, not me
I never lost control
You're face to face
With The Man Who Sold The World
I laughed and shook hishand, and made my way back home
I searched for form and land, for years and years I roamed
I gazed a gazley stare at all the millions here
We must have died along, a long long time ago
Who knows? not me
We never lost control
You're face to face
With the Man who Sold the World
Originally by David Bowie
Plateau
Album: Unplugged
Time: ?
Many a hand has scaled the grand old face of the plateau
Some belong to strangers and some to folks you know
Holy ghosts and talk show hosts are planted in the sand
To beautify the foothills and shake the many hands
The nothing on the top but a bucket and a mop
And an illustrated book about birds
You see a lot up there but don't be scared
Who needs action when you got words
When you've finished with the mop then you can stop
And look at what you've done
The plateau's clean, no dirt to be seen
And the work it took was fun
Well the many hands began to scan around for the next plateau
Some said it was in Greenland and some in Mexico
Some decided it was nowhere except for where they stood
But they were all just guesses, wouldn't help you if they could
Originally by The Meat Puppets
Oh, Me
Album: Unplugged
Time: ?:??
If I had to lose a mile
If I had to touch feelings
I would lose my soul
The way I do
I don't have to think
I only have to do it
The results are always perfect
And that's old news
Would you like to hear my voice
sprinkled with emotion
Invented at your birth?
I can't see the end of me
My whole expanse I cannot see
I formulate infinity
Stored deep inside me
Originally by the Meat Puppets
Lake Of Fire
Top
Album: Unplugged
Time: ?
Where do bad folks go when they die?
They don't go to heaven where the angels fly
They go down to the lake of fire and fry
Won't see them again till the fourth of July
I knew a lady who came from Duluth
She got bit by a dog with a rabid tooth
She went to her grave just a little too soon
And she flew away howling on the yellow moon
Now the people cry and the people moan
And they look for a dry place to call their home
And try to find some place to rest their bones
While the angels and the devils
Fight to claim them for their own
Originally by The Meat Puppets
Where Did You Sleep Last Night
Top
Album: Unplugged
Time: ?
My girl, my girl, don't lie to me
Tell me where did you sleep last night
In the pines, in the pines
Where the sun don't ever shine
I would shiver the whole night through
My girl, my girl, where will you go
I'm going where the cold wind blows
Her husband, was a hard working man
Just about a mile from here
His head was found in a driving wheel
But his body never was found
Traditional Folk Song
Alcohol (Also called High On Hog)
Top
Album: Outcesticide III
Time: ??
My baby taught me how to be
My baby taught me how to fight
My baby taught me how to die
Alcohol, alcohol, alcohol, alcohol!
My baby taught me how to smoke
My baby taught me how to breathe
My baby taught me how to hide
My baby taught me how to leave
Alcohol, alcohol, alcohol, alcohol!
My baby taught me how to choke
My baby taught me how to eat
My baby taught me how to fuck
My baby taught me how to be
Alcohol, alcohol, alcohol, alcohol!
Beans
Top
Album: Into the Black
Time: ?:??
Beans, beans, beans
Daddy ate some beans
He was happy, happy, happy
And he ate some beans
Naked, naked, naked
Sitting cross-legged
Naked, naked, naked
And he was happy, happy, happy
And he ate some beans
Wine, wine, wine
Daddy had some wine
He was happy, happy, happy
And he ate some wine
Beans, beans, beans
Daddy ate some beans
And he drank some wine
And he was happy, happy, happy
As he drank some beans
Blandest
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Album: (1988 Demos)
Time: ?:??
You're my favorite
Of my saviours
You're my favorite
Oh no
Yes you're my favorite
Of my favors
You're my razor
Oh no
Hey!
And the situation wasn't quite
As intense as I thought
I need you around
To remind me when not to be calm (to remind me what not to become)
And the situation wasn't quite
As intense as I thought
I need you around
To remind me when not to be calm
Calm, calm, calm
Clean Up Before She Comes
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Album: bootleg cd "DRESSED FOR SUCCESS"
Clean up before she comes (x5)
Living in a dusty town (x3)
There's something in her eyes
Must be a smile from my mouth
There's something in her eyes
Must be a smile from my mouth
Twenty months has it all (getting older)
I must be getting old (ate my vegetables)
I must be getting old (getting older)
I must be getting old (ate my vegetables)
There's something in her eyes
Must be a smile from my mouth
There's something in her eyes
Must be a smile from my mouth
Clean up the dusty town
Living in a dusty town (x3)
Clean up before she comes (x3)
Living in a dusty town
I must be getting old (getting older)
I must be getting old (ate my vegetables)
Bad mouth spirit ate my vegetables
Curmudgeon
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Album: (Lithium CD Single)
Time: 2:58
I can't hide, no
On the mantle
I'm not sad
Tilling that hoe
It's the season
I'm all reason
I have seen
All I have grown
Sheared at the seams
Cheat on me
And not seen
At the seams
I'm a lender
I'm a planter
I put something
In the garden
In the handle
On the mantle
I'm not Santa
I'm a god
I want a lady
Can you save me?
It's the sulfur
I have grown
'Tis the season
I'm all reason
I have fleas
So run on home
D7
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Album: Hormoaning EP, "Lithium" import single, or Peel sessions
Time: 3:48
Straight as an arrow
Defect defect
Not straight, not so straight
Reject reject
Towards anti-social
Solo solo
Standing on the stairs
Cold, cold morning
Ghostly image of fear
Mayday mayday
Gonna leave this region
They'll take me with them
Dimension seven
Originally by The Wipers
Do You Love Me?
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Album: Hard to Believe (Kiss Covers Album)
Time: 3:24
You really like my limousine
You like the way the wheels roll
You like my seven inch leather heels
And goin' to all of the shows
But...
Do you love me?
Really love me?
Do you love me?
You like the credit cards and private planes
Money can really take you far
You like the hotels and fancy clothes
And the sound of electric guitars
You really like rock 'n' roll
All of the fame and the masquerade
You like the concerts and studios
And all the moeny honey that I make
Your backstage pass and black sunglasses
Make you look just like a queen
Even the fans they know your face
From all of the magazines
Originally by KISS
Even In His Youth
Top
Album: Hormoaning EP
Time: 3:08
Even in his youth he was nothing
Kept his body clean going nowhere
Daddy was ashamed he was nothing
Smears the family name he was something
Leave the check before you are through
I've got nothing left to prove
If I die before I wake
Hope I don't come back again
Help Me, I'm Hungry
Top
Melkweg, Amsterdam 11/5/89
Time: ?:??
Hold me, there's too much tension
Grade me, I'm fucking hungry
Help me, I'm fucking cornered
Grade me, you might be right
Lightning fucking around in my head
Fierce, dangerous, pathetic, fucked up
People freaking every day
White lights inside
What do you want
Cold naked man, picked off his scabs and
Fed them to the pigeons
Help him, he's fucking cornered
Grade him it might be fun
Lightning fucking around in my head, etc...
Hold me, something's happening
Help me, somebody help me
Hold me, I'm fucking hungry
Help me, I'm right here, who are you?
Naked man (you say you saw)
Fed them, to the pigeons
Help him, he's fucking cornered
Grade him, it might be fun
Lightning fucking around in my head, etc...
Help me, I'm fucking hungry
Help me, I'm fucking up
Hold me, some fucking help
Here She Comes Now
Top
Album: Heaven & Hell Vol. 1, Fifteen Minutes, 7" single on Communion Records [w/ "Venus In Furs" by Melvins]
Time: 1:51
Aah, if she ever comes now now
Aah, she looks so good,
aah, she's made out of wood, just look and see
Originally by the Velvet Underground.
I Hate Myself and Want to Die
Top
Album: The Beavis & Butthead Experience (Compilation)
Time: 2:49
Runny nose and runny yolk
Even if you have a cold still
You can cough on me again
I still havent had my fulfill
In the someday what's that sound?
Broken heart and broken bones
Think about some capsules of horse pills
One more quirky cliche'd phrase
You're the one I wanna refill
In the someday what's that sound?
most people don't realize
that two large pieces of coral,
painted brown, and attached to his skull
with common wood screws can make a child look like a deer
In His Room
Top
?
Time: ?
He is gonna chase you in and out of a dream
You're not gonna thank him and I'm tired of this dream
Take him on occassion in the back of the room
If they don't show any affection he'll died in June
See the stab wounds in his hands
See him dying in his room
He's dying in his room
He's dying in his room
Heading for me, heading this way
He is coming, I don't care
I don't want to thank you, well I don't mind
Gave his only pleasures to a friend of mine
He's not gonna catch you in a lighted room
You don't thank him I know I should
See the stab wounds in his hands
You killed him, I don't care
Keep a promise, you would too
Keep a promise, you would too
See the silence in his head
He is coming, I don't care
We're not gonna make it, well I don't mind
They don't want to thank him, they don't have any time
In a conversation whom they don't know
They don't have any patience, they're becoming slow
See a famine in his head
See him coming at their heels
He loves you, give him a chance
I don't love him, I don't care
See him starving, give her hell
It is over, we don't care In His Room
Junkyard
Top
Album: Outcesticide?
Time: 3:22
I'm long gone from vertical, somewhere south is stopping me
I'm long gone from the american dream, you may decide it's not for me
I'm long gone but I'll let you through, you may decide it's not for you.
I'm long gone but I'll let you through,
you may decide there's nothing there born in a junkyard
I'm long gone but I'll let you through, you may decide that it's not good
I'm long gone but I'll let you leave, you may decide on stopping me
I'm long gone but I'll let you through, you may decide it's not that good
I'm long gone but I'll let you leave, you may decide on stopping me.
born in a junkyard
gone
Transcribed by: phth46e@prodigy.com (Philip Elmer)
Marigold
Top
Album: (Heart-Shaped Box Single)
Time: ?:??
He's there in case I wandered off
He's scared because I warned
He's scared in case I want it all
He's scared 'cause I want
All in all the clock is slow
Six color pictures all in a row
Of a marigold
Moist Vagina
Top
Album: All Apologies Single
Time: ?
She had a moist vagina
I've been tickling the circumference
I've been sucking the walls of her anus
Marijuana
I prefered her to any other
Marijuana
Oh, the Guilt
Top
Album: 7" single on Touch and Go Records [w/ "Puss" by Jesus Lizard]
Time: 3:23
She seems to think
She seems too weak
She takes a week to get over it
She likes the sea
She likes to see
She likes to think she has all of it
She likes the sound
She likes the sand
She likes to stand, she can't afford to sit
She likes to be
She's into guilt
Guilt
She likes to think
she likes to drink
She seems too weak, she takes all the rent
She likes the time
she owns the time
She borrows time to self-invent
She seems too weak
she likes to see
She likes to think she has all of it
She likes the sand
she likes to stand
She likes to sit
she likes to go
Go
She likes to be
She likes to go
Go
On the Mountain (a.k.a. You Know You're Right)
Top
Album: Single
Time:
I will never bother you
I will never promise to
I will never follow you
I will never bother you
Never speak a word again
I will crawl away for good
I won't move away from here
You won't be afraid of fear
No thought was put into this
Always knew it would come to this
Things have never been so swell
I have never failed to fail
Pain (3x)
You know you're right (3x)
I'm so warm and calm inside
I no longer have to hide
There's talk about someone else
Sterling silver begins to melt
Nothing really bothers her
She just wants to love herself
I won't move away from here
You won't be afraid of fear
No thought was put into this
Always knew it would come to this
Things have never been so swell
I have never failed to fail
Pain (5x)
You know you're right (17x)
Opinion
Top
Album: ?
Time: 1:34
Congratulations you have won
It's a years subscription of bad puns.
And it makes your story our concern
And you set it up for returns
My opinions. Hmm. Huh. (4x)
And there seems to be a problem here.
Your state of emotion seems to clear.
You rise and fall like wall street stock
And they had an affect on our happy talk.
Our opinions. Hmm. Huh. (2x)
My opinions. Hmm. Huh. (2x)
Congratulations you have won
It's a years subscription of bad puns.
And it makes your story our concern
And you set it up for returns
Our opinions. Hmm. Huh.
Your opinions. Hmm. Huh. (3x)
My opinions. Hmm. Huh.
Pay To Play
Top
Album: DGC Rarities Vol. 1
Time: 3:16
Monkey see, monkey do -- I don't know why I
Walk around, follow you -- I don't know why I
Throw it out, keep it in -- I don't know why I
Have to have poison skin -- I don't know why I
Pay
Pay to play
Give an inch, take a mile -- I don't know why I
Never faded, never smiled -- I don't know why I
Never mind, eat and run -- I don't know why I
Fuck your ass, for the fun -- I don't know why I
I don't know why I
Pay
Pay to play
Pen Cap Chew
Top
Album:
Time:
Ummm, lies again (it hurts again?)
Ummm, mine x3
Ummm, mmmm
You get (kill?), you get, you get, you get to me
All the years of tyrants such an easy way to go
You get, you get, you get, you get to me
Time to struggle and the scaling of fingernails
Ummm, lies again
Ummm, mine x3
Ummm, mmmm, You're lonely
Waste your time by saying he was gullible (sp?)
Give up all additions in there where it's cold
Push that gate, it is the age of red eye shame
Protest swine, go to jail, the travesty
Two minutes slow...slow...slow...oh
lyrics transcribed by Mike Farmer <(mfarmer@mail.coin.missouri.edu)
Raunchola
Top
Album: Outcesticide III
Time: ??
If it's a hard, cold beat
You can go dance every night
You won't get it shown
It won't be missing the spice
You won't know that it hit ya
??????????????????????????????
Nothing'll make you win
Even the law won't fight
Yeah!
Looking to make your winning
Even if it makes you look nice
You (I?) got a sound that's nice
Watching (making?) the days go by
You can't go to the day lord's house
We don't have no doubt
We go to too many cocktails
Pimples in way..
??????????????????????????????
From: Mike Farmer (mfarmer@mail.coin.missouri.edu)
Return of the Rat
Top
Album: Eight/Fourteen Songs for Greg Sage and the Wipers (Tribute Compilation)
Time: 3:05
You better watch out
You better beware
They're coming from all sides of the country
You better beware
Return of the rat
No, no, no, no!
You better confess
You had better confess
You start to confess and see them through it
You better confess
Cover of a song by Greg Sage and the Wipers
Sappy
Top
Album: ?
Time: ?
And if you say your prayers
You will make God happy
And if you do what's true
You will make me happy
I'll keep you in a jar
And you will seem happy
I'll give you breathing holes
You will think you're happy, now
You're in a laundry room
You're in a laundry room
You're in a laundry room
And if you save yourself
You will make him happy
He'll bring you fine rewards
Then you will feel happy
I'll keep you in my room
I'm sure you'll be happy
And if you save your soul
You will think you're happy now
You're in a laundry room
You're in a laundry room
You're in a laundry room
You're in a laundry room
Spank Thru
Top
Album: Sub-Pop-200 Compilation
Time: 2:47
This song is for lovers out there
And the little lights in the trees
And all the flowers have gingivitis
And the birds fly happily
We're together once again my love
I need you back, oh baby baby
I can't explain just why we lost it from the start
Living without you girl, you'll only break my heart...
I can feel it I can hold it I can rub it I can shape it
I can mold it I can cut it I can taste it I can spank it
Beat it Masterbate it
I been looking for days now
Always hearing the same ol'
City boy won't you spank thru?
I can make you do things you won't think you ever could
Spectre
Top
Album: 1989 Barnyard Demos
Time: ??
To hope is admittance
Feed before beginning
Double-sided cynics
Reflected images
Don't be so selfish
Leaving the image
Follow it far
To find where you are
You haven't grown
Go on alone
Never finished his sentence
Remained in seclusion
For the next few days
Family is circuling
He having moved up
All the styles of heresy
Finally he appeared unexpectedly
Looking for company
Talk To Me
Top
Album: 1989 Barnyard Demos
Time: 2:58
Shake it down easy, shake it down sleazy, come on
Shake it down easy, shake yourself, Suzy, come on
Don't let me detain you
Try to ride along
Don't you lie, knowing
I am not sad
I am not silly
I am not chippin'
I am not chippin' away
Talk to me
In your own language, please
In your own
Talk to me
In your own language please
Shake it down easy, make it sound seamy, doll man
Make it sound now, make it full house, sad man
Leader of the band
Makes a mental hell
I won't weather it well
Well I never
Saw it with my arm
Paint it with my heart
Paint it with my eyes and make it right
Lay down easy, lay it down seamy, sad man
Lay down easy, lay it down seamy, sad man
You don't want to hear this
Nothin' but a whore
I will play the leader
With pain
Now you know I'm needy
Lay them down easy
Lay them down easy
Talk to me
In your own language please
Token Eastern Song (also known as Happy Hour)
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Album: 1989 Barnyard Demos
Time: ??
I can read, I can write
I can breathe, proven fact
Bless my greed, greased unfold
Is it me, or my ego
Write some words, make them rhyme
Pieces for, story line
Set the mood, something new
Is it me, or my attitude
If you want, to belong
And you miss, the extremes
The extremes, acted out
Practicing
Perfecting
Pressuring
Unto to me
I will wade, in the fire
To explain, your asylum
Idle times, analyzing
We'll compare, all our sightings, come on
I speak, to hear, my voice
Verse Chorus Verse [also called "Everything and Nothing"]
Top
Album: No Alternative benefit compilation (uncredited track 19)
Time: 3:18
And if you save yourself
You will make him happy
He'll keep you in a jar
And you'll think you're happy
He'll give you breathing holes
And you'll think you're happy
He'll cover you with dust
And you'll think you're happy now
You're in a laundry room
You're in a laundry room
The clue that came to you, oh
And if you guard yourself
You will think you're happy
He'll keep you in a jar
Then you'll make him happy
He'll give you breathing holes
Then you'll think you're happy
He'll cover you with dust
Then you'll think you're happy now
You're in a laundry room
You're in a laundry room
The clue that came to you, oh
You're in a laundry room
You're in a laundry room
The clue that came to you, oh
And if you fool yourself
You will make him happy
He'll keep you in a jar
Then you'll think you're happy
He'll give you breathing holes
Then you will seem happy
You'll wallow in the shit
Then you'll think you're happy now
You're in a laundry room
You're in a laundry room
You're in a laundry room
The clue that came to you, oh
Blew
Album: Bleach
Time: 2:54
If you wouldn't mind I would like it blew
If you wouldn't mind I would like it loose
If you wouldn't care I would like to leave
If you wouldn't mind I would like to breathe
Is there another reason for your stain
Could you believe him when you discussed his stain?
Here is another word that rhymes with shame
You could do anything
Floyd The Barber
Album: Bleach
Time: 2:18
Bell on the door rings come on in
Floyd observes my hairy chin
Sit down in the chair don't be afraid
Steaming hot towel on my face
I was shaved
I was shamed
I was shaved
Barney ties me to the chair
I can't see I'm really scared
Floyd breathes hard, I hear a zip
Pee-Pee pressed against my lips
I was shaved
I was shamed
I was shaved
I sense others in the room
Opie, Aunt Bea I presume
They take turns and cut me up
I die smothered in Aunt Bee's muff...
I was shamed
I was shamed
I was shaved
About a Girl
Album: Bleach
Time: 2:49
I need an easy friend
I do... with an ear to lend
I do... think you fit this shoe
I do... won't you have a clue
I'll take advantage while
You hang me out to dry
But I can't see you every night
Free
I'm standing in your line
I do... hope you have the time
I do... pick a number too
I do... keep a date with you
School
Album: Bleach
Time: 2:42
Won't you believe it
It's just my luck
No recess
You're in high school again
Love Buzz
Album: Bleach
Time: 3:35
Would you believe me when I tell you
You are the queen of my heart
Please don't deceive me when I hurt you
Just ain't the way it seems
Can you feel my love buzz
Originally by Shocking Blue
Paper Cuts
Album: Bleach
Time: 4:06
When I'm feeling tired
She pushed food through the door
And I crawl towards the crack of light
Sometimes I can't find my way
Newspapers spread around
Soaking all that they can
A cleaning is due again
--a good hosing down
The lady whom I feel maternal love for
Cannot look me in the eyes
But I see hers and they are blue
And they cock and twist and masturbate
I said so
Nirvana
Black windows of paint
I scratched with my nails
I see others just like me
Why do they not try to escape?
They bring out the older ones
They point in my way
They come with a flash of light
And take my family away
And very later I have learned to
Accept some friends of ridicule
My whole existence is for your amusement
And that is why I'm here with you!
To take you with me
You're right
Nirvana
Negative Creep
Album: Bleach
Time: 2:56
This is out of our reach... and it's grown
This is getting to be... drone
I'm a negative creep and I'm stoned!
Daddy's little girl ain't a girl no more
This is out of our range... and it's crude
This is getting to be... like drone
I'm a negative creep and I'm stoned!
Fuck! Yeah! Drone! Stoned!
Scoff
Album: Bleach
Time: 4:10
In my eyes
I'm not lazy
In my face
It's not over
In your room
I'm not older
In your eyes
I'm not worth it
Gimme back my alcohol
Give me all your...
Swap Meet
Album: Bleach
Time: 3:03
They lead a lifetime that is comfortable
They travel far to keep their stomachs full
They make their living off of arts and crafts
They kind with seashells driftwood and burlap
They make a deal when they come to town
The Sunday swap meet is a battle ground
She loves him more than he will ever know
He loves her more than he will ever show
--Keeps his cigarettes close to his heart
--Keeps her photographs close to her heart
--Keeps the bitterness close to the heart
Mr. Moustache
Album: Bleach
Time: 3:24
Fill me in on your new vision
Wake me up with indecision
Help me trust your mighty wisdom
Yes I eat cow - I am not proud.
Show me how you question, question
Lead the way to my temptations
Take my hand and give it cleaning
Yes I eat cow - I am not proud.
Is he in an easychair?
--Poop as hard as a rock.
I don't like you anyway
--Seal it in a box
I'm new [Now you]
I'm who?
I'm you
Sifting
Album: Bleach
Time: 5:22
Afraid to grade
Wouldn't it be fun?
Cross, self loss
Wouldn't it be fun?
Wet your bed
Wouldn't it be fun?
Some fear none [Sun felt numb]
Wouldn't it be fun?
Your eyes... Teacher said,
Your eyes... Preacher said,
"Don't have nothing for you"
Spell the smell
Wouldn't it be fun?
Search for church
Wouldn't it be fun?
Wet your bed
Wouldn't it be fun?
Cold in gold [Cold in coals]
Wouldn't it be fun?
Big Cheese
Album: Bleach
Time: 3:42
Big cheese Make me
Mine says, "Go to the office"
Big cheese Make me
Mine says, what the hell?
Black is black, no trading back
We were enemies
Show you all what a man is [Sure you are, but what am I?]
Big lies make mine
Mine says "Go to office"
Big cheese Make me
Message? What is it?
Black is black, no trading back
We were enemies
She eats glue, how bout you?
Downer
Album: Bleach, Incesticide
Time: 1:43
Portray sincerity
Act out of loyalty
Defend your true country
Wish away the pain
Hand out lobotomies
To save little families
Surrealistic fantasy
Bland boring plain
Hold me down in restitution
Living out your date with fusion
Is the whole fleece shun in master?
Don't feel guilty, master writing
Somebody said that they're not much like I am
I know I can
Make enough of the words for you to follow along
I sink and then some
Slippery pessimist hypocrite master
Conservative communist apocalyptic bastard
Thank you dear God for putting me on this Earth
I feel very privileged in debt for my thirst
Smells Like Teen Spirit
Album: Nevermind
Time: 5:01
Load up on guns and bring your friends
It's fun to lose and to pretend
She's over bored and self assured
Oh no, I know a dirty word
Hello, hello, hello, how low?
(chorus)
With the lights out it's less dangerous
Here we are now, entertain us
I feel stupid and contagious
Here we are now, entertain us
A mulatto
An albino
A mosquito
My Libido
Yay!
I'm worse at what I do best
And for this gift I feel blessed
Our little group has always been
And always will until the end
Hello, hello, hello, how low?
(chorus)
And I forget just why I taste
Oh yeah, I guess it makes me smile
I found it hard, it was hard to find
Oh well, whatever, nevermind
hello, hello, hello, how low?
(chorus)
With the lights out it's less dangerous
Here we are now, entertain us
I feel stupid and contagious
Here we are now, entertain us
A mulatto
An albino
A mosquito
My Libido
A denial...
In Bloom
Album: Nevermind
Time: 4:15
Sell the kids for food
--weather changes moods
Spring is here again
--reproductive glands
(chorus)
He's the one
Who likes all our pretty songs
And he likes to sing along
And he likes to shoot his gun
But he don't know what it means
Don't know what it means
And I say... yeaahh
(repeat)
We can have some more -- nature is a whore
Bruises on the fruit -- tender age in bloom
(chorus)
Come As You Are
Album: Nevermind
Time: 3:39
Come as you are, as you were,
As I want you to be
As a friend, as a friend, as an old enemy
Take your time, hurry up
The choice is yours, don't be late
Take a rest as a friend as an old memoria
Come dowsed in mud, soaked in bleach
As I want you to be
As a trend, as a friend, as an old memoria
And I swear that I don't have a gun
No I don't have a gun
Breed
Album: Nevermind
Time: 3:04
I don't care...
Care if I'm old
I don't mind...
Mind, don't have a mind
Get away...
Away from your home
I'm afraid...
Afraid of a ghost
Even if you have
Even if you need
I don't mean to stare
We don't have to breed
We can plant a house
We can build a tree
I don't even care
We could have all three
She said...
Lithium
Album: Nevermind
Time: 4:17
I'm so happy 'cause today
I've found my friends ...
They're in my head
I'm so ugly, but that's okay, 'cause so are you...
We've broken our mirrors
Sunday morning is everyday for all I care...
And I'm not scared
Light my candles in a daze...
'Cause I've found god - yeah, yeah, yeah
I'm so lonely but that's okay I shaved my head...
And I'm not sad
And just maybe I'm to blame for all I've heard...
But I'm not sure
I'm so excited, I can't wait to meet you there...
But I don't care
I'm so horny but that's okay...
My will is good - yeah, yeah, yeah
I like it - I'm not gonna crack
I miss you - I'm not gonna crack
I love you - I'm not gonna crack
I kill you - I'm not gonna crack
Polly
Album: Nevermind, Incesticide [as "(New Wave) Polly"]
Time: 2:57
Polly wants a cracker
Think I should get off of her first
I think she wants some water
To put out the blow torch
(chorus)
Isn't me
Haven't seed
Let me clip
Your dirty wings
Let me take a ride
Cut yourself
I want some help
Please myself
I've got some rope
You have been told
I promise you
I have been true
Let me take a ride
Cut yourself
I want some help
Please myself
Polly wants a cracker
Maybe she would like some food
She asks me to untie her
A chase would be nice for a few
(chorus)
Polly says her back hurts
And she's just as bored as me
She caught me off my guard
It amazes me, the will of instinct
(chorus)
Territorial Pissings
Album: Nevermind
Time: 2:23
"Come on people now, smile on your brother, everybody get together,
try to love one another right now..."
When I was an alien, cultures weren't opinions
Gotta find a way to find a way when I'm there
Gotta find a way - a better way -
I had better wait
Never met a wise man, if so it's a woman
"Just because you're paranoid
Don't mean they're not after you."
Drain You
Album: Nevermind
Time: 3:44
One baby to another says,
I'm lucky to have met you
I don't care what you think
Unless it is about me
It is now my duty to completely drain you
A travel through a tube
And end up in your infection
Chew your meat for you
Pass it back and forth
In a passionate kiss
From my mouth to yours
Because I like you
With eyes so dilated,
I've became your pupil
You've taught me everything
Without a poison apple
The water is so yellow, I'm a healthy student
Indebted and so grateful -
Vacuum out the fluids
...Sloppy lips to lips
You're my vitamins because I'm like you
Lounge Act
Album: Nevermind
Time: 2:36
Truth covered in security
I can't let you smother me
I'd like to but it couldn't work
Trading off and taking turns
I don't regret a thing
And I've got this friend, you see
Who makes me feel and I
Wanted more than I could steal
I'll arrest myself, I'll wear a shield
I'll go out of my way to prove I still
Smell her on you
Don't tell me what I wanna hear
Afraid of never knowing fear
Experience anything you need
I'll keep fighting jealousy
Until it's fucking gone
I'll go out of my way to make you a deal
We've make a pact to learn from who
Ever we want without new rules
We'll share what's lost and what we grew
They'll go out of their way
To prove they still
Smell her on you
Stay Away
Album: Nevermind
Time: 3:32
Monkey see, monkey do
(I don't know why)
I'd rather be dead than cool
(I don't know why)
Every line ends in rhyme
(I don't know why)
Less is more, love is blind
(I don't know why)
Stay away
Give an inch, take a smile
(I don't know why)
Fashion shits, fashion style
(I don't know why)
Throw it out and keep it in
(I don't know why)
Have to have poison skin
(I don't know why)
Stay away
God is gay
On A Plain
Album: Nevermind
Time: 3:14
I'll start this off without any words
I got so high that I scratched 'til I bled
I love myself better than you
I know it's wrong so what should I do?
The finest day that I ever had
Was when I learned to cry on command
I love myself better than you
I know it's wrong so what should I do?
I'm on a plain
I can't complain
My mother died every night
It's safe to say don't quote me on that
I love myself better than you
I know it's wrong so what should I do?
The black sheep got blackmailed again
Forgot to put on the zip code
I love myself better than you
I know it's wrong so what should I do?
I'm on a plain
I can't complain
Somewhere I have heard this before
In a dream my memory has stored
As a defense I'm neutered and spayed
What the hell am I trying to say
It is now time to make it unclear
To write off lines that don't make sense
I love myself better than you
I know it's wrong so what should I do?
One more special message to go
And then I'm done then I can go home
I love myself better than you
I know it's wrong so what should I do?
I'm on a plain
I can't complain
Something In The Way
Album: Nevermind
Time: 3:48
Underneath the bridge
The tarp has sprung a leak
And the animals I've trapped
Have all become my pets
And I'm living off of grass
And the drippings from the ceiling
It's ok to eat fish
'Cause they don't have any feelings
Something in the way
Endless Nameless
Album: Nevermind (hidden track)
Time: 7:21
Silence
Here I am
Here I am
Silent
Bright and clear
It's what I am
I have
Died
uhhhh (or mother? x4)
uhhhh
uhhhh
uhhhh
Death
With violence
Excitment
Right here
Died
Go to hell
Here I am
Right here
Ow
No mas
No mas
No mas
No mas
Death
Is what I am
Go to hell
Go to jail
In back of that
Crime
Here I am
Take a chance
Dead
Die
Other interpretations possible.
Dive
Album: Incesticide, Hormoaning EP
Time: 3:53
Pick me, Pick me yeah
Let alone, I'll signal
I lease it, lease, yeah
Everyone is how old
Pick me, pick me yeah
Everyone is waiting
Pick me pick me yeah
You can leave 'em baby
hey
dive, dive, dive, dive in me
Dive in me
Kiss this, kiss that yeah
Let alone, I'll signal
I lease ah, lease, yeah
You can be my hero
Pick me, pick me yeah
Everyone is waiting
Hit me, hit me yeah
I'm real good at hatin'
Hey
Dive, dive, dive, dive in me
Dive in me
Dive in me
---[The following are from some live versions.]
Take me, take me, yeah
Let along you signal
At least, at least, yeah
Everyone is hollow
Take me, take me, yeah
Everyone is naked
At least, at least, yeah
You can even swallow
Lick this, kiss that, yeah
Everyone is naked
At least, at least, yeah
Everyone is sated
Take this, take that, yeah
Everyone is hollow
At least, at least, yeah
You can eat my marrow
Prick me, prick me, yeah
Sliver
Album: Incesticide
Time: 2:12
Mom and dad went to a show
they dropped me off at Grandpa Joe's
I kicked and screamed, said please no
Grandma take me home
Had to eat my dinner there
Mashed potatos and stuff like that
I couldn't chew my meat good
Grandma take me home
Said well good just stop your crying
Go outside and ride your bike
Thats what i did, i kicked my toe
Grandma take me home
after dinner, I had ice cream
Fell asleep, and watched TV
I woke up in my mother's arms
Grandma take me home
I wanna be alone
Stain
Album: Incesticide
Time: 2:37
Well he never bleeds and he never fucks
And he never leaves 'cause he's got bad luck.
Well he never reads and he never draws
And he never sleeps 'cause he's got bad blood yeah
I'm a stain, I'm a stain, I'm a stain, I'm a stain
Been A Son
Album: Incesticide
Time: 1:53
She should have stayed away from friends
She should have had more time to spend
She should have died when she was born
She should have worn the crown of thorns
She should have been a son
She should have been a son
She should have been a son
She should have been a son
She should have made her mother proud
She should have stood out in the crowd
She should have had another chance
She should have fallen on her stance
She should have been a son
She should have been a son
She should have been a son
She should have been a son
Turnaround
Album: Incesticide, Hormoaning EP
Time: 2:17
Take a step outside yourself
And turn around
Take a look at who you are
It's pretty scary
So silly
Revolting
You're not much
You can't do anything
Take a step outside the city
And turn around
Take a look at what you are
It is revolting
You're really nowhere
So wasteful
So foolish
Poppycock
Who said don't look back?
Don't believe 'em
Go for that crazy sounding restaurant
'Cause they're gonna try and get behind you
Don't you let them do it
You know what I'm talking about?
You hear me talking?
You hear me talking?
It's pretty scary it's so revolting
Take a step outside the country
And turn around
Take a look at what you are
It is amazing
Take a good look
You're no big deal
You're so petty
It's lots
Take a step outside the planet
Turn around and around
Take a look at where you are
It's pretty scary
Originally by Devo
Molly's Lips
Album: Incesticide, Hormoaning EP
Time: 1:51
She said
She'd take me anywhere
She'd take me anywhere
As long as she stays with me
She said
She'd take me anywhere
She'd take me anywhere
As long as I stayed clean
Kiss kiss
Molly's lips
Kiss kiss
Molly's lips
Kiss kiss
Molly's lips
Kiss kiss
Originally by The Vaselines
Son Of A Gun
Album: Incesticide, Hormoaning EP
Time: 2:47
Up up up and down
Turn turn turnaround
Round round roundabout
And over again
Gun gun son of a gun
You are the only one
Makes any difference what I say
The sun shines in the bedroom
When we play
The raining always starts
When you go away
Originally by The Vaselines
Beeswax
Album: Incesticide, Hormoaning EP
Time: 2:47
Why doesn't she need him for a father?
Not only maidens can occupy my shack
Goring my manhood turns a man off.
Like Pepe LePew would say,
Hey, hey, hey! -- then we clash!
I got my diddly spayed
She laughs about it.
Shrinking inflections if the wind blows just right.
Jacking themselves off polyester.
I wanna jump, this isn't right!
Hey, when am I getting it back?
I don't know why,
I got a joke too silly to say.
Don't touch the balls.
I got a dick, Dick -- hear my fucking hate!
If you're wondering, it's gaining monthly. (If your world is getting ugly)
Fiberglass insulated, the sky is cotton candy.
Spawning downstream, El Rancho Ovulate.
Feeling can't help me romp
Bill just fuck me, take me anal
Billy's slit reminds me of someone.
I'm sick of paying for the love boat
Tony and Tenille say wanna jump rope
And I say look!
I got my penis spayed,
I got a little tail,
I got my dingaling spayed
...nothing hard
I gotta be around pussy
Don't let me fall
I got a heh-heh...well you can't live
We got my dingaling spayed
When ya gonna learn?
Mexican Seafood
Album: Incesticide
Time: 1:52
Uh, the itchy flakes, it isnt good for me.
Cure, with gels and creams, its entertainin'
True, fungus mold is my attraction
Hope, its only a, a yeast infection
Only hurts when i, hurts when i pee
Only hurts when i, hurts when i sing
Oh, its in my bed, just consists of lice, bugs and fleas
Beneath the mucus stain the vaseline its an...
Hope its only a, a yeast infection
Only hurts when i, hurts when i pee
Only hurts when i, hurts when i sing
Hairspray Queen
Album: Incesticide
Time: 4:12
I was young my an' you were mine.
My enemy you were, my an' i was young.
Your enemy you were, my an' i was young.
Your enemy you were, my an' i was once.
You ene...
You rang
Your ears rang
I was young my an' you were mine.
My enemy you were, my an' i was young.
Your enemy you were, my an' i was young.
Your enemy you were, my an' i was once.
You ene...
At night wishfull godess
At night crystal locket
At night mouth of almounds
At sight a fish full of garbage
At night disco god.
I was young my an' you were mine.
My enemy you were, my an' i was young.
Your enemy you were, my an' i was young.
Your enemy you were, my an' i was once.
You ene...
At night the wishfull godess
At night crystal locket
At night mouth of almounds
At sight a fish full of garbage
At night disco god.
I was young my an' you were mine.
My enemy you were, my an' i was young.
Your enemy you were, my an' i was young.
Your enemy you were, my an' i was once.
You ene...
At night she was so modest
At night crystal locket
At night mouth of almounds
At sight a fish full of garbage
At night disco god.
Ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah
Ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah
Ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah
(interesting erotic noises)
Aero Zeppelin
Album: Incesticide
Time: 4:39
What's the season of love if you can't have everything
what's the reason of love if you can lose everything
what's the meaning of love, it's a crime if anything
what's the meaning of love, it's a crime, it's a crime
How can a culture can forget it's plan of yesterday
and you swear it's not a trend, doesn't matter anyways
there's no need to talk to friends, nothing new is everyday.
you could shit upon the stairs, you'll be friends
All the kids will eat it up, if it's packaged properly.
Should it subtlely irritate, keep it movin' equally.
All I know is just the fact, where the world is nowadays
An idea is what we lack, doesn't matter anyway
All the kids will eat it up, if it's packaged properly
Still the son will imitate, keep it fallin' equally
All i know is just the facts, where the world is nowadays
An idea is what we lack, doesn't matter anyway
Big Long Now
Album: Incesticide
Time: 5:01
It's not cold enough
Please put this side up
She is moving through
Can we show our faces now?
I'm not interesting
She's not turning green
Shameful as it seems
Can we show our faces now?
Endless climb
I am blind
Why can't I leave?
Color blind
Speaking a phrase
Instantly grown
I am blind
Waiting in line
Why am I sure?
Aneurysm
Album: Incesticide (remixed version), Hormoaning EP
Time: 4:36
Come on over and do the twist
Overdo it and have a fit
Love you so much it makes me sick
Come on over and do the twist
Beat me outta me (Beat it, beat it)
Come on over and do the twist
Over-do it and have a fit
Over-do it and have a fit
Love you so much it makes me sick
Come on over and shoot the shit
She keeps it pumpin' straight to my heart
Serve The Servants
Album: In Utero
Time: 3:34
Teenage angst has paid off well
Now I'm bored and old
Self-Appointed judges judge
More than they have sold
If she floats than she is not
A witch like we had thought
A down payment on another
One at salem's lot
Serve the servants - Oh no
That legendary divorce is such a bore
As my bones grew they did hurt
They hurt really bad
I tried hard to have a father
But instead I had a dad
I just want you to know that I
Don't hate you anymore
there is nothing I could say
that I haven't thought before
Serve the servants - oh no
That legendary divorce is such a bore
Scentless Apprentice
Album: In Utero
Time: 3:47
Like most babies smell like butter
his smell smelled like no other
he was born scentless and senseless
he was born a scentless apprentice
Go away - get away, get away, get a-way
every wet nurse refused to feed him
electrolytes smell like semen
I promise not to sell your perfumed secrets
there are countless formulas for pressing flowers
I lie in the soll and fertilize mushrooms
Leaking out gas fumes are made into perfume
You can't fire me because I quit
Throw me in the fire and I won't throw a fit
Heart-shaped Box
Album: In Utero
Time: 4:39
She eyes me like a Pisces when I am weak
I've been locked inside your Heart-Shaped box four whole weeks
I've been drawn into your magnet tar pit trap
I wish I could eat your cancer when you turn black
Hey
Wait
I've got a new complaint
Forever in debt to your priceless advice
Hey
Wait
I've got a new complaint
Forever in debt to your priceless advice
Hey
Wait
I've got a new complaint
Forever in debt to your priceless advice
Your advice
Meat-eating orchids forgive no one just yet
Cut myself on angel's hair and baby's breath
Broken hymen of your highness I'm left black
Throw down your umbilical noose so I can climb right back
Hey
Wait
I've got a new complaint
Forever in debt to your priceless advice
Hey
Wait
I've got a new complaint
Forever in debt to your priceless advice
Hey
Wait
I've got a new complaint
Forever in debt to your priceless advice
Your advice
She eyes me like a Pisces when I am weak
I've been locked inside your Heart-Shaped box four whole weeks
I've been drawn into your magnet tar pit trap
I wish I could eat your cancer when you turn black
Hey
Wait
I've got a new complaint
Forever in debt to your priceless advice
Hey
Wait
I've got a new complaint
Forever in debt to your priceless advice
Hey
Wait
I've got a new complaint
Forever in debt to your priceless advice
Your advice
Your advice
Your advice
Rape Me
Album: In Utero
Time: 2:49
Rape me,
Rape me my friend
Rape me,
Rape me again
I'm not the only one
Hate me,
Do it and do it again.
Waste me,
Rape me my friend.
I'm not the only one
My favorite inside source
I'll kiss your open sores
Appreciate your concern
You'll always stink and burn
Rape me,
Rape me my friend
Rape me,
Rape me again
I'm not the only one
Rape me...
Frances Farmer Will Have Her Revenge On Seattle
Album: In Utero
Time: 4:07
It's so relieving to know that you're leaving as soon as you get paid
It's so relaxing to hear you're asking wherever you get your way
I's so soothing to know that you'll sue me,
this is starting to sound the same
I miss the comfort in being sad
In her false withness, we hope you're still with us,
to see if they float or drown
Our favorite paitent, A display of patience,
disease-covered Puget Sound
She'll come back as fire, to burn all the liars,
and leave a blanket of ash on the ground
I miss the comfort in being sad
Dumb
Album: In Utero
Time: 2:29
I'm not like them
But I can pretend
The sun is gone
But I have a light
The day is done
But I'm having fun
I think I'm dumb
or maybe just happy
Think I'm just happy
my heart is broke
But I have some glue
help me inhale
And mend it with you
We'll float around
And hang out on clouds
Then we'll come down
And have a hangover... have a hangover
Skin the sun
Fall asleep
Wish away
The soul is cheap
Lesson learned
Wish me luck
Soothe the burn
Wake me up
I'm not like them
But I can pretend
The sun is gone
But I have a light
The day is done
But I'm having fun
I think I'm dumb
Very Ape
Album: In Utero
Time: 1:55
I am buried up to my neck in
Contradictionary flies
I take pride as the king of illiterature
I'm very ape and very nice
If you ever need anything please don't hesitate
to ask someone else first
I'm too busy acting like I'm not naive.
I've seen it all I was here first
Out of the ground
Into the sky
Out of the sky
Into the dirt
Milk It
Album: In Utero
Time: 3:52
I am my own parasite
I don't need a host to live
We feed off of each other
We can share our endorphns
Doll steak, test meat
I won my own pet virus
I get to pet and name her
Her milk is my shit
My shit is her milk
Doll steak, test meat
Look on the bright side is suicide
Lost eyesight I'm on your side
Angel left wing, right wing, broken wing
Lack of iron and/or sleeping
Protector of the kennel
Ecto-plasma
Ecto-skeletal
Obituary birthday
Your scent is still here in my place of recovery
Pennyroyal Tea
Album: In Utero
Time: 3:36
I'm on my time with everyone
I have very bad posture
Sit and drink Pennyroyal Tea
Distill the life that's inside of me
Sit and drink Pennyroyal tea
I'm anemic royalty
Give me a Leonard Cohen afterworld
So I can sigh eternally
I'm so tired I can't sleep
I'm a liar and a thief
Sit and drink Pennyroyal Tea
I'm anemic royalty
I'm on warm milk and laxatives
Cherry-flavored antacids
Radio Friendly Unit Shifter
Album: In Utero
Time: 4:49
Use just once and destroy
Invasion of our piracy
Afterbirth of a nation
Starve without your skeleton key
I love you for what I am not
I do not want what I have got
A blanket acne'ed with ciggarette burns
Speak at once while taking turns
Second-rate third degree burns
What is wrong with me
What is what I need
What do I think I think
This had nothing to do with what you think
If you ever think at all
Bi-polar opposites attract
All of a sudden my water broke
Hate, hate your enemies
Save, save your friends
Find, find your place
Speak, speak the truth
Tourette's
Album: In Utero
Time: 1:33
Suggested Lyrics
"...Moderate Rock..."
May day, every day, my day
Could've had a heart attack, my heart
We don't know anything, my heart.
We all want something fair, my heart.
Hey!
Hey!
Heyyyyyyy! Heyyyyy! Heyyyyy!
Out of town, out of sight (fire), is my heart.
Queen of lies, today, my heart
One more on the phone, my heart
One more at the door of my heart.
Hey!
Hey!
Heyyyyyyyyyyy!
Mean heart, cold heart, cold heart, cold heart
Cold heart, cold heart, cold heart, cold heart -- uhhhhhhh!
All Apologies
Album: In Utero
Time: 3:50
What else should I be
All apologies
What else should I say
Everyone is gay
What else could I write
I don't have the right
What else should I be
All apologies
In the sun
In the sun I feel as one
In the sun
In the sun
I'm married
buried
I wish I was like you
Easily amused
Find my nest of salt
Everything is my fault
I'll take all the blame
Aqua seafoam shame
Sunburn with freezeburn
Choking on the ashes of her enemy
All in all is all we are
Gallons Of Rubbing Alcohol Flow Through The Strip
Album: In Utero: The Pachyderm Sessions
Time: 7:33
It hurts when you have to press that dull little thing
that you're only supposed to use once and then discard.
Where do you put it? In the garbage can, my honest friend.
My shyness, pet her flow.
She's only been five months late,
even though we haven't had sex for a week.
A meal a day, a meal, I say.
And my heart's made my....
Somebody else already used the word aurora borealis.
She was tied up in chains, and Sam had helped her in the freezer.
She's only five weeks late,
and I haven't had a date forever...
ever...ever...forever!
Wish I had more...more opportunity,
more chances to remember some things
so I couldn't have so much pressure on my...
on my...on my, um...ah, on my...um...um...head.
We'd have so much more diversity,
and so much more input, so much more creative flow,
if we had someone in school, a (GIT)...
GIT...geeks...in...town.
Ha!...Come on, Dave, think of one...
Girls In Trouble
It should be GIC, geeks with Charvels
No, GWC
Fuck, man, this is a waste of time!
(laughs) One more solo? Yeahhhhhhhhh! Yeaaaahhhhh!
You're personally responsible for...
the entire strip...to be washed away...
cleansed...as if gallons of, um, rubbing alcohol
flowed through the strip and were set on fire.
It didn't just singe the hair, it made it straight.
And then Perry Ellis came along with his broom,
and his...silk...
and he...he erected a beautiful city...
a city of stars.
Jesus Don't Want Me For A Sunbeam
Album: Unplugged
Time: ??
Jesus, don't want me for a sunbeam
Sunbeams are never made like me
Don't expect me to cry,
For all the reasons you had to die
Don't ever ask your love of me.
Don't expect me to cry
Don't expect me to lie
Don't expect me to die for me.
Originally by The Vaselines
The Man Who Sold The World
Album: Unplugged
Time: ?
We passed upon the stair, we spoke of was and when
Although I wasn't there, he said I was his friend
Which came as some surprise I spoke into his eyes
I thought you died alone, a long long time ago
Oh no, not me
I never lost control
You're face to face
With The Man Who Sold The World
I laughed and shook hishand, and made my way back home
I searched for form and land, for years and years I roamed
I gazed a gazley stare at all the millions here
We must have died along, a long long time ago
Who knows? not me
We never lost control
You're face to face
With the Man who Sold the World
Originally by David Bowie
Plateau
Album: Unplugged
Time: ?
Many a hand has scaled the grand old face of the plateau
Some belong to strangers and some to folks you know
Holy ghosts and talk show hosts are planted in the sand
To beautify the foothills and shake the many hands
The nothing on the top but a bucket and a mop
And an illustrated book about birds
You see a lot up there but don't be scared
Who needs action when you got words
When you've finished with the mop then you can stop
And look at what you've done
The plateau's clean, no dirt to be seen
And the work it took was fun
Well the many hands began to scan around for the next plateau
Some said it was in Greenland and some in Mexico
Some decided it was nowhere except for where they stood
But they were all just guesses, wouldn't help you if they could
Originally by The Meat Puppets
Oh, Me
Album: Unplugged
Time: ?:??
If I had to lose a mile
If I had to touch feelings
I would lose my soul
The way I do
I don't have to think
I only have to do it
The results are always perfect
And that's old news
Would you like to hear my voice
sprinkled with emotion
Invented at your birth?
I can't see the end of me
My whole expanse I cannot see
I formulate infinity
Stored deep inside me
Originally by the Meat Puppets
Lake Of Fire
Top
Album: Unplugged
Time: ?
Where do bad folks go when they die?
They don't go to heaven where the angels fly
They go down to the lake of fire and fry
Won't see them again till the fourth of July
I knew a lady who came from Duluth
She got bit by a dog with a rabid tooth
She went to her grave just a little too soon
And she flew away howling on the yellow moon
Now the people cry and the people moan
And they look for a dry place to call their home
And try to find some place to rest their bones
While the angels and the devils
Fight to claim them for their own
Originally by The Meat Puppets
Where Did You Sleep Last Night
Top
Album: Unplugged
Time: ?
My girl, my girl, don't lie to me
Tell me where did you sleep last night
In the pines, in the pines
Where the sun don't ever shine
I would shiver the whole night through
My girl, my girl, where will you go
I'm going where the cold wind blows
Her husband, was a hard working man
Just about a mile from here
His head was found in a driving wheel
But his body never was found
Traditional Folk Song
Alcohol (Also called High On Hog)
Top
Album: Outcesticide III
Time: ??
My baby taught me how to be
My baby taught me how to fight
My baby taught me how to die
Alcohol, alcohol, alcohol, alcohol!
My baby taught me how to smoke
My baby taught me how to breathe
My baby taught me how to hide
My baby taught me how to leave
Alcohol, alcohol, alcohol, alcohol!
My baby taught me how to choke
My baby taught me how to eat
My baby taught me how to fuck
My baby taught me how to be
Alcohol, alcohol, alcohol, alcohol!
Beans
Top
Album: Into the Black
Time: ?:??
Beans, beans, beans
Daddy ate some beans
He was happy, happy, happy
And he ate some beans
Naked, naked, naked
Sitting cross-legged
Naked, naked, naked
And he was happy, happy, happy
And he ate some beans
Wine, wine, wine
Daddy had some wine
He was happy, happy, happy
And he ate some wine
Beans, beans, beans
Daddy ate some beans
And he drank some wine
And he was happy, happy, happy
As he drank some beans
Blandest
Top
Album: (1988 Demos)
Time: ?:??
You're my favorite
Of my saviours
You're my favorite
Oh no
Yes you're my favorite
Of my favors
You're my razor
Oh no
Hey!
And the situation wasn't quite
As intense as I thought
I need you around
To remind me when not to be calm (to remind me what not to become)
And the situation wasn't quite
As intense as I thought
I need you around
To remind me when not to be calm
Calm, calm, calm
Clean Up Before She Comes
Top
Album: bootleg cd "DRESSED FOR SUCCESS"
Clean up before she comes (x5)
Living in a dusty town (x3)
There's something in her eyes
Must be a smile from my mouth
There's something in her eyes
Must be a smile from my mouth
Twenty months has it all (getting older)
I must be getting old (ate my vegetables)
I must be getting old (getting older)
I must be getting old (ate my vegetables)
There's something in her eyes
Must be a smile from my mouth
There's something in her eyes
Must be a smile from my mouth
Clean up the dusty town
Living in a dusty town (x3)
Clean up before she comes (x3)
Living in a dusty town
I must be getting old (getting older)
I must be getting old (ate my vegetables)
Bad mouth spirit ate my vegetables
Curmudgeon
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Album: (Lithium CD Single)
Time: 2:58
I can't hide, no
On the mantle
I'm not sad
Tilling that hoe
It's the season
I'm all reason
I have seen
All I have grown
Sheared at the seams
Cheat on me
And not seen
At the seams
I'm a lender
I'm a planter
I put something
In the garden
In the handle
On the mantle
I'm not Santa
I'm a god
I want a lady
Can you save me?
It's the sulfur
I have grown
'Tis the season
I'm all reason
I have fleas
So run on home
D7
Top
Album: Hormoaning EP, "Lithium" import single, or Peel sessions
Time: 3:48
Straight as an arrow
Defect defect
Not straight, not so straight
Reject reject
Towards anti-social
Solo solo
Standing on the stairs
Cold, cold morning
Ghostly image of fear
Mayday mayday
Gonna leave this region
They'll take me with them
Dimension seven
Originally by The Wipers
Do You Love Me?
Top
Album: Hard to Believe (Kiss Covers Album)
Time: 3:24
You really like my limousine
You like the way the wheels roll
You like my seven inch leather heels
And goin' to all of the shows
But...
Do you love me?
Really love me?
Do you love me?
You like the credit cards and private planes
Money can really take you far
You like the hotels and fancy clothes
And the sound of electric guitars
You really like rock 'n' roll
All of the fame and the masquerade
You like the concerts and studios
And all the moeny honey that I make
Your backstage pass and black sunglasses
Make you look just like a queen
Even the fans they know your face
From all of the magazines
Originally by KISS
Even In His Youth
Top
Album: Hormoaning EP
Time: 3:08
Even in his youth he was nothing
Kept his body clean going nowhere
Daddy was ashamed he was nothing
Smears the family name he was something
Leave the check before you are through
I've got nothing left to prove
If I die before I wake
Hope I don't come back again
Help Me, I'm Hungry
Top
Melkweg, Amsterdam 11/5/89
Time: ?:??
Hold me, there's too much tension
Grade me, I'm fucking hungry
Help me, I'm fucking cornered
Grade me, you might be right
Lightning fucking around in my head
Fierce, dangerous, pathetic, fucked up
People freaking every day
White lights inside
What do you want
Cold naked man, picked off his scabs and
Fed them to the pigeons
Help him, he's fucking cornered
Grade him it might be fun
Lightning fucking around in my head, etc...
Hold me, something's happening
Help me, somebody help me
Hold me, I'm fucking hungry
Help me, I'm right here, who are you?
Naked man (you say you saw)
Fed them, to the pigeons
Help him, he's fucking cornered
Grade him, it might be fun
Lightning fucking around in my head, etc...
Help me, I'm fucking hungry
Help me, I'm fucking up
Hold me, some fucking help
Here She Comes Now
Top
Album: Heaven & Hell Vol. 1, Fifteen Minutes, 7" single on Communion Records [w/ "Venus In Furs" by Melvins]
Time: 1:51
Aah, if she ever comes now now
Aah, she looks so good,
aah, she's made out of wood, just look and see
Originally by the Velvet Underground.
I Hate Myself and Want to Die
Top
Album: The Beavis & Butthead Experience (Compilation)
Time: 2:49
Runny nose and runny yolk
Even if you have a cold still
You can cough on me again
I still havent had my fulfill
In the someday what's that sound?
Broken heart and broken bones
Think about some capsules of horse pills
One more quirky cliche'd phrase
You're the one I wanna refill
In the someday what's that sound?
most people don't realize
that two large pieces of coral,
painted brown, and attached to his skull
with common wood screws can make a child look like a deer
In His Room
Top
?
Time: ?
He is gonna chase you in and out of a dream
You're not gonna thank him and I'm tired of this dream
Take him on occassion in the back of the room
If they don't show any affection he'll died in June
See the stab wounds in his hands
See him dying in his room
He's dying in his room
He's dying in his room
Heading for me, heading this way
He is coming, I don't care
I don't want to thank you, well I don't mind
Gave his only pleasures to a friend of mine
He's not gonna catch you in a lighted room
You don't thank him I know I should
See the stab wounds in his hands
You killed him, I don't care
Keep a promise, you would too
Keep a promise, you would too
See the silence in his head
He is coming, I don't care
We're not gonna make it, well I don't mind
They don't want to thank him, they don't have any time
In a conversation whom they don't know
They don't have any patience, they're becoming slow
See a famine in his head
See him coming at their heels
He loves you, give him a chance
I don't love him, I don't care
See him starving, give her hell
It is over, we don't care In His Room
Junkyard
Top
Album: Outcesticide?
Time: 3:22
I'm long gone from vertical, somewhere south is stopping me
I'm long gone from the american dream, you may decide it's not for me
I'm long gone but I'll let you through, you may decide it's not for you.
I'm long gone but I'll let you through,
you may decide there's nothing there born in a junkyard
I'm long gone but I'll let you through, you may decide that it's not good
I'm long gone but I'll let you leave, you may decide on stopping me
I'm long gone but I'll let you through, you may decide it's not that good
I'm long gone but I'll let you leave, you may decide on stopping me.
born in a junkyard
gone
Transcribed by: phth46e@prodigy.com (Philip Elmer)
Marigold
Top
Album: (Heart-Shaped Box Single)
Time: ?:??
He's there in case I wandered off
He's scared because I warned
He's scared in case I want it all
He's scared 'cause I want
All in all the clock is slow
Six color pictures all in a row
Of a marigold
Moist Vagina
Top
Album: All Apologies Single
Time: ?
She had a moist vagina
I've been tickling the circumference
I've been sucking the walls of her anus
Marijuana
I prefered her to any other
Marijuana
Oh, the Guilt
Top
Album: 7" single on Touch and Go Records [w/ "Puss" by Jesus Lizard]
Time: 3:23
She seems to think
She seems too weak
She takes a week to get over it
She likes the sea
She likes to see
She likes to think she has all of it
She likes the sound
She likes the sand
She likes to stand, she can't afford to sit
She likes to be
She's into guilt
Guilt
She likes to think
she likes to drink
She seems too weak, she takes all the rent
She likes the time
she owns the time
She borrows time to self-invent
She seems too weak
she likes to see
She likes to think she has all of it
She likes the sand
she likes to stand
She likes to sit
she likes to go
Go
She likes to be
She likes to go
Go
On the Mountain (a.k.a. You Know You're Right)
Top
Album: Single
Time:
I will never bother you
I will never promise to
I will never follow you
I will never bother you
Never speak a word again
I will crawl away for good
I won't move away from here
You won't be afraid of fear
No thought was put into this
Always knew it would come to this
Things have never been so swell
I have never failed to fail
Pain (3x)
You know you're right (3x)
I'm so warm and calm inside
I no longer have to hide
There's talk about someone else
Sterling silver begins to melt
Nothing really bothers her
She just wants to love herself
I won't move away from here
You won't be afraid of fear
No thought was put into this
Always knew it would come to this
Things have never been so swell
I have never failed to fail
Pain (5x)
You know you're right (17x)
Opinion
Top
Album: ?
Time: 1:34
Congratulations you have won
It's a years subscription of bad puns.
And it makes your story our concern
And you set it up for returns
My opinions. Hmm. Huh. (4x)
And there seems to be a problem here.
Your state of emotion seems to clear.
You rise and fall like wall street stock
And they had an affect on our happy talk.
Our opinions. Hmm. Huh. (2x)
My opinions. Hmm. Huh. (2x)
Congratulations you have won
It's a years subscription of bad puns.
And it makes your story our concern
And you set it up for returns
Our opinions. Hmm. Huh.
Your opinions. Hmm. Huh. (3x)
My opinions. Hmm. Huh.
Pay To Play
Top
Album: DGC Rarities Vol. 1
Time: 3:16
Monkey see, monkey do -- I don't know why I
Walk around, follow you -- I don't know why I
Throw it out, keep it in -- I don't know why I
Have to have poison skin -- I don't know why I
Pay
Pay to play
Give an inch, take a mile -- I don't know why I
Never faded, never smiled -- I don't know why I
Never mind, eat and run -- I don't know why I
Fuck your ass, for the fun -- I don't know why I
I don't know why I
Pay
Pay to play
Pen Cap Chew
Top
Album:
Time:
Ummm, lies again (it hurts again?)
Ummm, mine x3
Ummm, mmmm
You get (kill?), you get, you get, you get to me
All the years of tyrants such an easy way to go
You get, you get, you get, you get to me
Time to struggle and the scaling of fingernails
Ummm, lies again
Ummm, mine x3
Ummm, mmmm, You're lonely
Waste your time by saying he was gullible (sp?)
Give up all additions in there where it's cold
Push that gate, it is the age of red eye shame
Protest swine, go to jail, the travesty
Two minutes slow...slow...slow...oh
lyrics transcribed by Mike Farmer <(mfarmer@mail.coin.missouri.edu)
Raunchola
Top
Album: Outcesticide III
Time: ??
If it's a hard, cold beat
You can go dance every night
You won't get it shown
It won't be missing the spice
You won't know that it hit ya
??????????????????????????????
Nothing'll make you win
Even the law won't fight
Yeah!
Looking to make your winning
Even if it makes you look nice
You (I?) got a sound that's nice
Watching (making?) the days go by
You can't go to the day lord's house
We don't have no doubt
We go to too many cocktails
Pimples in way..
??????????????????????????????
From: Mike Farmer (mfarmer@mail.coin.missouri.edu)
Return of the Rat
Top
Album: Eight/Fourteen Songs for Greg Sage and the Wipers (Tribute Compilation)
Time: 3:05
You better watch out
You better beware
They're coming from all sides of the country
You better beware
Return of the rat
No, no, no, no!
You better confess
You had better confess
You start to confess and see them through it
You better confess
Cover of a song by Greg Sage and the Wipers
Sappy
Top
Album: ?
Time: ?
And if you say your prayers
You will make God happy
And if you do what's true
You will make me happy
I'll keep you in a jar
And you will seem happy
I'll give you breathing holes
You will think you're happy, now
You're in a laundry room
You're in a laundry room
You're in a laundry room
And if you save yourself
You will make him happy
He'll bring you fine rewards
Then you will feel happy
I'll keep you in my room
I'm sure you'll be happy
And if you save your soul
You will think you're happy now
You're in a laundry room
You're in a laundry room
You're in a laundry room
You're in a laundry room
Spank Thru
Top
Album: Sub-Pop-200 Compilation
Time: 2:47
This song is for lovers out there
And the little lights in the trees
And all the flowers have gingivitis
And the birds fly happily
We're together once again my love
I need you back, oh baby baby
I can't explain just why we lost it from the start
Living without you girl, you'll only break my heart...
I can feel it I can hold it I can rub it I can shape it
I can mold it I can cut it I can taste it I can spank it
Beat it Masterbate it
I been looking for days now
Always hearing the same ol'
City boy won't you spank thru?
I can make you do things you won't think you ever could
Spectre
Top
Album: 1989 Barnyard Demos
Time: ??
To hope is admittance
Feed before beginning
Double-sided cynics
Reflected images
Don't be so selfish
Leaving the image
Follow it far
To find where you are
You haven't grown
Go on alone
Never finished his sentence
Remained in seclusion
For the next few days
Family is circuling
He having moved up
All the styles of heresy
Finally he appeared unexpectedly
Looking for company
Talk To Me
Top
Album: 1989 Barnyard Demos
Time: 2:58
Shake it down easy, shake it down sleazy, come on
Shake it down easy, shake yourself, Suzy, come on
Don't let me detain you
Try to ride along
Don't you lie, knowing
I am not sad
I am not silly
I am not chippin'
I am not chippin' away
Talk to me
In your own language, please
In your own
Talk to me
In your own language please
Shake it down easy, make it sound seamy, doll man
Make it sound now, make it full house, sad man
Leader of the band
Makes a mental hell
I won't weather it well
Well I never
Saw it with my arm
Paint it with my heart
Paint it with my eyes and make it right
Lay down easy, lay it down seamy, sad man
Lay down easy, lay it down seamy, sad man
You don't want to hear this
Nothin' but a whore
I will play the leader
With pain
Now you know I'm needy
Lay them down easy
Lay them down easy
Talk to me
In your own language please
Token Eastern Song (also known as Happy Hour)
Top
Album: 1989 Barnyard Demos
Time: ??
I can read, I can write
I can breathe, proven fact
Bless my greed, greased unfold
Is it me, or my ego
Write some words, make them rhyme
Pieces for, story line
Set the mood, something new
Is it me, or my attitude
If you want, to belong
And you miss, the extremes
The extremes, acted out
Practicing
Perfecting
Pressuring
Unto to me
I will wade, in the fire
To explain, your asylum
Idle times, analyzing
We'll compare, all our sightings, come on
I speak, to hear, my voice
Verse Chorus Verse [also called "Everything and Nothing"]
Top
Album: No Alternative benefit compilation (uncredited track 19)
Time: 3:18
And if you save yourself
You will make him happy
He'll keep you in a jar
And you'll think you're happy
He'll give you breathing holes
And you'll think you're happy
He'll cover you with dust
And you'll think you're happy now
You're in a laundry room
You're in a laundry room
The clue that came to you, oh
And if you guard yourself
You will think you're happy
He'll keep you in a jar
Then you'll make him happy
He'll give you breathing holes
Then you'll think you're happy
He'll cover you with dust
Then you'll think you're happy now
You're in a laundry room
You're in a laundry room
The clue that came to you, oh
You're in a laundry room
You're in a laundry room
The clue that came to you, oh
And if you fool yourself
You will make him happy
He'll keep you in a jar
Then you'll think you're happy
He'll give you breathing holes
Then you will seem happy
You'll wallow in the shit
Then you'll think you're happy now
You're in a laundry room
You're in a laundry room
You're in a laundry room
The clue that came to you, oh
The Suicide Note of Kurt Donald Cobain
The Suicide Note of Kurt Donald Cobain, 1967-1994
To Boddah
Speaking from the tongue of an experienced simpleton who obviously would rather be an emasculated, infantile complain-ee. This note should be pretty easy to understand.
All the warnings from the punk rock 101 courses over the years, since my first introduction to the, shall we say, ethics involved with independence and the embracement of your community has proven to be very true. I haven't felt the excitement of listening to as well as creating music along with reading and writing for too many years now. I feel guity beyond words about these things.
For example when we're back stage and the lights go out and the manic roar of the crowds begins., it doesn't affect me the way in which it did for Freddie Mercury, who seemed to love, relish in the the love and adoration from the crowd which is something I totally admire and envy. The fact is, I can't fool you, any one of you. It simply isn't fair to you or me. The worst crime I can think of would be to rip people off by faking it and pretending as if I'm having 100% fun. Sometimes I feel as if I should have a punch-in time clock before I walk out on stage. I've tried everything within my power to appreciate it (and I do,God, believe me I do, but it's not enough). I appreciate the fact that I and we have affected and entertained a lot of people. It must be one of those narcissists who only appreciate things when they're gone. I'm too sensitive. I need to be slightly numb in order to regain the enthusiasms I once had as a child.
On our last 3 tours, I've had a much better appreciation for all the people I've known personally, and as fans of our music, but I still can't get over the frustration, the guilt and empathy I have for everyone. There's good in all of us and I think I simply love people too much, so much that it makes me feel too fucking sad. The sad little, sensitive, unappreciative, Pisces, Jesus man. Why don't you just enjoy it? I don't know!
I don't have a goddess of a wife who sweats ambition and empathy... and a daughter who reminds me too much of what i used to be, full of love and joy, kissing every person she meets because everyone is good and will do her no harm. And that terrifies me to the point to where I can barely function. I can't stand the thought of Frances becoming the miserable, self-destructive, death rocker that I've become.
I have it good, very good, and I'm grateful, but since the age of seven, I've become hateful towards all humans in general. Only because it seems so easy for people to get along that have empathy. Only because I love and feel sorry for people too much I guess.
Thank you all from the pit of my burning, nauseous stomach for your letters and concern during the past years. I'm too much of an erratic, moody baby! I don't have the passion anymore, and so remember, it's better to burn out than to fade away.
...ani
Peace, love, empathy.
Kurt Cobain
Frances and Courtney, I'll be at your alter. Please keep going Courtney, for Frances. For her life, which will be so much happier without me.
I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU!
When I heard mutterings of this long ago I thought, "Oh Please. Murder? Kurt Cobain? But didn't he already try suicide? So... this time he did it. Bummer".
I love Nirvana. Love. (I also have a massive crush on David Grohl, who is one of the funniest and nicest guys there is, but he never returns my calls...
They still won't reopen the case even though many people who are quite credible came forward to say Something Wasn't Kosher. . After I read everything there was to read I came away totally convinced he was murdered. What also got to me was the simple fact that if this was anyone else...any other death of Any Other Someone ..even 1/3rd of this info would have got the case reopened or at very least, some people dragged by their black roots into some serious police questioning. But it was handily written off as .just another depressed-drug addict-unstable rock star suicide. And as we saw with OJ Simpson and the JonBenet Ramsey murder - when you have money you get to bribe, bullshit, stall, dance, sing and buy your way out of it all and walk free. People are hired to play the game of Find The Loopholes, and the richest win. If the people involved in Kurt's "suicide" were you and me? We'd be so deep in jail right now for obstructing justice they'd have to feed us with a slingshot. Kurt's now filthy rich widow no one could stand, Won.
To run over some quick facts (some of which aren't and will be cleared up later): Kurt Cobain, the magic of the band Nirvana (and someone I always admired for being stuck with the same 19-colors of natural blonde hair as I do), killed himself in a greenhouse over his garage; supposedly by a self-inflicted shotgun wound to the head. So they said. The moody, depressive off-again-mosly-on-again heroin addict's death came as a sad shock to most, but not a total surprise. He'd overdosed before, a prior suicide attempt. He'd "run away" from rehab days before and no one could find him as he hid from everyone, in some desperate mental state. Everyone was looking frantically for him. So why would anyone question this?
The evidence would make it questionable. A lot was ignored if not outright lied about by police and ignorantly misreported by the media (imagine). "Facts" stated about the death scene and circumstances weren't very factual. The stuff that didn't neatly fit into the handy verdict of Just Another Suicide were ignored and more interesting embellishments made. Fact is, the ex-Mrs.Cobain, AKA the former Skank Nobody Groupie Heroin Addict who latched onto the famous Kurt and then suddenly managed to become Someone thanks to being Mrs. Cobain, apparently wanted him dead. Oh, she was pissed off, big time. And a lot of people knew this. Including Kurt, who decided he'd finally had quite enough of it, and her.
What was the problem? Kurt wanted to quit The Music Biz and retire out of public eye. He'd never been too happy with the Rock Star Thing. He felt like a phony, he didn't enjoy it, he felt as if he was betraying his fans, forcing himself to do something he hated while they adored him for doing it. He'd made his money, he was burnt out, he just thought he'd see what life would bring. Kurt also wanted a divorce, and Courtney's often publicly abused Meal Ticket was about to finally file for it. Courtney's prenuptial agreement would leave her with not too much, as opposed to his death which left her
million$ and a perpetual heir to the Cobain estate. Plus it's much more glamorous to be Kurt's Poor Widow than That Bitch Poor Kurt Married. People compared her to Yoko Ono, down to her even starting fight within Kurt's band members when she found out they all got the same per cent of the profits, her yelling at him that he did most of the work, he was Nirvana, he did the song writing and she...wait she means he... should be getting most of the money. Problem was, Kurt was motivated by friendship and the artist's need to create. The band saw itself as "the band" and he didn't want to screw his friends out of nickels and dimes. It was a group effort, not ego or greed. The worse she got, the worse he got into depression and drugs, until he decided he'd had it and had to cut loose or die. He went to rehab and was hell bent on getting his life together. He made no secret of this. Friends were encouraging; no one liked She Who Needs To Bathe and wanted him to get away from her. Then came the "suicide". Strangely this happened right before the release of Courtney's CD, which sold briskly because of the whole sad, tragic event. Poor Courtney! (It was also a great CD, I thought. But then it would be since the story is that Kurt wrote most of it for her).
Usually additional detective work or even plain Citizens who come up with even a shred of possible question can get a possible murder case reopened or looked at with a more objective eye. People's body's have been exhumed to test for poisons well after "Natural death" was believed to have ended their life. Murder doesn't have a statue of limitation. It's not rare for info to come up later - death bed confessions, someone finally opening their big mouth, someone screwing up. Yet all the evidence found by Tom Grant meets with a cold, steadfast dismissal. As you read through this story, pretend we're talking about just a regular Joe Schmo here. Pretend there was some gold-digging wife in the wings, pretend this all pertains to just a supposed suicide but then someone came up with a lot of things that just didn't make sense and said you know, maybe this was a murder. I bet you'll agree a case would be reopened based on this information. Just to be fair, just to make sure. Just to check. But not this one, and that is what's so anomalous.
At the time of his death, Kurt was straightening out his life and decided he wanted to leave the Rock and Roll life. He never really liked being in the lime light and Nirvana's unexpected and sudden fame had made him miserable, going against the grain of who he was. The other thing that was making him miserable was his marriage. He had wanted to divorce before but the birth of his daughter made him decide to hang in there (funny how that "I'll get knocked up" thing often works for awhile). It didn't improve the situation. He decided it was finally time to make some big changes in his life and be happy.
This really pissed off Courtney, and caused bitter arguments. She saw no reason, wanting to be a Famous Rock Star herself, for him to call it all off right when he was Famous and on top of the game. And besides, most said (most knew) the whole point of her marrying Kurt was because he had money and was who he was.
When Courtney realized he was going to really file for divorce she asked her family lawyer, Rosemary Carroll, to find her the "meanest, most vicious divorce lawyer" she could. Because Kurt wasn't an idiot and Courtney was No One when they got married, she had been asked to sign a prenuptial agreement that would leave her with half of Kurt's money in the event of divorce. Courtney wanted someone who might be able to get her out of this agreement and change that. As it turns out, she inherited everything upon his death and always will have a steady stream of royalties and fame from his estate. Ms. Carroll was instrumental in starting an investigation into what really was going on. After his death, Rosemary contacted Tom Grant and said she had information she wanted to share and had come to believe Courtney was behind Kurt's death - she had the possible motive.
At this time Kurt also called Rosemary to tell her he realized he had never finished making out his Will, and he wanted to do that. He wanted to remove Courtney completely out of it.
Days before his death, Kurt had been in a rehab facility in Los Angeles but had left before the treatment period ended. A friend visiting Kurt in the facility said he looked the best he'd ever seen him look, was happy, upbeat and looking forward to the changes he had planned for himself. Kurt booked a flight home to Seattle, making no attempt to hide the fact he had left rehab or was now home, nor any attempt to stay out of sight. Fans recognized him at the airport and he talked to them and signed autographs.
At the time Kurt was in rehab, Courtney also enrolled in an outpatient rehab program "to support Kurt". The "out patient" program was really her just staying in a $500 a night suite at a L.A. Hotel with her baby daughter and her daughter's nanny. Her band's first CD was about to come out and she was mostly there to do some PR work for it.
Side note: it's said Kurt was behind the success of this CD, "Live Through This" writing most of the catchy lyrics and catchy hooks, really taking a mundane talent and making it a success. Hole's first CD was released in 1991 but went nowhere and the two after "Live Through This" didn't do well, either. In fact the original cover for "LTT" was supposed to be a childhood photo of Kurt, but was quickly changed when he died to try to make it less obvious Ms. Love had been cashing in on the fact she was Mrs. Cobain. Some say you can even hear his guitar work on it.
When Kurt left rehab and was supposedly a Missing Person, Courtney was arrested in her $500 a day LA hotel suite due to an anonymous 911 emergency phone call reporting that there had been a drug overdose in her room. Paramedics arrived and took her to the hospital, but she had not OD'd so was released 2 hours later into police custody. She was charged with possession of a syringe and drug paraphernalia. Tom Grant says this was Courtney's alibi for the whole mess because it got her out of the picture at the right time with a host of credible witnesses on the
day, it was later estimated, Kurt died. The 911 call, it was found out later, was placed from her hotel room
.After leaving rehab and arriving home from the airport, Kurt woke up their live-in nanny, Michael Dewitt (nicknamed "Cali") and talked with him awhile. Cali had been a good friend of Courtney's way before she met Kurt which is how he got the nanny job.
Kurt also tried to call Courtney at the hotel in LA but couldn't get through. He left a message and the number of a friend's where he was hanging out. This is hardly the actions of a guy who is running around hiding from everyone, suicidal. Courtney later said she had instructed the hotel front desk to put a block on her phone and only allow calls from Kurt to come through. She pretended to be furious at the front desk's faux pas. The hotel says this never happened.
When Courtney came home from LA, she started the story that Kurt had "escaped from" rehab and was supposedly nowhere to be found. However, someone was using Kurt's credit card. Courtney called a private investigator, Tom Grant, and asked if he could find the person using it. When Grant came to the house to interview her and get details, she admitted she lied and she really wanted to find Kurt, saying there had been no contact since he left the Rehab facility. In spite of this, she had canceled the card which then made it impossible to trace.
The person who had been using Kurt's credit card used it for 3 days before Courtney canceled it. This was the same 3 day period that was later estimated that Kurt had already been dead. The credit card was always kept in his wallet and he himself had never reported it missing before this, suggesting he had it in his possession when he died.
If Courtney had no idea where he was or HOW he was, how did she know his credit card was being used? Or used "by someone else"? And if she thought he was fine and "out there somewhere hiding", why would she cancel his credit card on him and cut off his money?
Courtney also asked Tom Grant to watch a woman's house that she suspected was Kurt's girlfriend "in case he'd show up there" even though she knew Kurt was always hanging out at home. 'She seemed more worried about watching this woman, than Kurt', said Tom.
Kurt had turned down heading the Lollapalooza tour, which would have made him over $9 million. Courtney was royally pissed about this and the other money making things he was turning down, following his plan to retire from the whole business.
When Tom Grant went to the house the day after first being contacted by Courtney, there was a note to Kurt from Cali, the nanny, which was left in plain view on the stairs. The note said Cali "couldn't believe" Kurt had been in the house without him knowing and bitched him out for not telling Courtney he was OK. But Cali had already seen Kurt once already - when Kurt first got home and after all, it was Kurt's house. Why be stunned or angry that he had been there and didn't tell him? Kurt didn't have to answer to Cali. Tom believes it was planted there for him to find, to make it look like Kurt was still alive and well and backing up the "theory" that Kurt was sneaking around avoiding everyone and everyone was frantic with worry.
Kurt's body was found by electricians that had been called to do work on the premises. They spotted his body through the glass doors of the greenhouse, which was located above the garage. He had been dead for 3 days. How did his body lay around for three days in his own home, getting missed by a live-in nanny, his wife and others who were supposedly looking all over for him, not knowing if at any given hour he'd shown up and was around somewhere? Wouldn't it be common sense to look here at least every morning to see if he might have been there?
No fingerprints were found on the shot gun that Kurt supposedly used to shoot himself in the head. There were 4 "latent prints" too faint and smudged to be of any use. Cops said this seemed to look as if someone wiped off the prints that had been there. Surely a man who just blew his head off can't pause to wipe a gun down. But it gets better - the gun wasn't even checked for fingerprints until one month after the "Suicide", on the request of Tom Green. If the gun was handled carefully by police so as not to add prints to it, there'd at least be Kurt's prints on it. If they didn't handle it carefully, it'd be full of prints from all the people who'd touched it. Why was it clean?
No fingerprints at all were found on the box of shells for the gun, which were next to Kurt's body. Three shells were loaded from the box of 25 - why would Kurt load 3 shells if he was planning to kill himself? Doesn't one do it? It was said Kurt bought the gun for home protection, and it's suggested you put 3 bullets in a gun if it's kept for that purpose.
No fingerprints at all were found on the pen Kurt supposedly used to write his "suicide note".
The 'suicide' note has been determined by two internationally known hand writing experts to be of two different handwritings. The "original" letter written by Kurt had nothing at all in it about suicide. It was a known fact that Kurt wanted to quit the Rock Business and he was fed up with his marriage to the abusive psycho Courtney. His written portion of the letter reads as such; merely a reflection and thoughts about how fed up he was, how he felt he was letting his fans down, being a phony by trying to stick with it and had decided, tho he felt guilty, to quit the whole thing. (click for text version)
The parts added to the note are the only sections that would make this note go into "a suicide note" mode. At the top of the note is written "Boddah" in this 2nd handwriting. At the bottom of the letter AFTER Kurt's signature are added four lines that put the 'suicide' ring to it, add some parting desperation and an added "'goodbye".
It was also reported by police that a "second suicide note" was found stuck into a bowl of flower bulbs by the door of the greenhouse. This one was addressed to Courtney and a name that was blacked out by police. It was signed "Kurt Colbain". Police said this misspelling of his own name was of "no significance" nor was the oddity of two "Suicide notes". This second one has never made public. The first one was made very public by Courtney who read it to crowds of Kurt's fans, weeping and swearing over it, and Kurt for leaving her. (And so, I say snidely, launched her Hollywood career as Actress).
When asked by Tom Grant why he hadn't searched the greenhouse, Dylan Carlson, Kurt's best friend and the guy who was with Kurt when he bought the shotgun said it was "just a dirty little room - I think they kept wood in there". When questioned later by the press he told them he hadn't looked in the greenhouse because he didn't know the greenhouse existed. Surely a best friend who spent a lot of time there would know there was an entire garage and greenhouse on his friend's property?
One of the main suspects became Cali, the nanny. When Tom Grant asked where he was so he could talk to him, Courtney first said he was in rehab in Georgia maybe, she thought , or no wait! He's on vacation. Green requested that she call him and ask him to come to back to Seattle for questioning. Courtney told a friend who was there at the time to go call him and tell him to come back home. When Grant left, Courtney got back on the phone, called Cali herself and said not to come back. He never did, and was never questioned by anyone about the death.
The police reports said there was a stool "wedged" under the door of the greenhouse, preventing anyone from entering. This is total BS...there was a small, 3-legged foot stool sitting towards the center of the door, way too short to reach the handle and light enough to have been easily scooted out of the way as the door was pushed open.
Kurt's body was found laying on his back, with the shotgun on his chest pointed to his head. His left hand was holding the barrel. Reports made it sound like he had blown his entire face/head off, and you'd expect that from a point-blank gunshot blast. On the floor was his wallet. Reports also stated that he had carefully taken out his driver's license and laid it out so identification could be made. This is total BS, too. One of the cops who arrived at the scene first took the license out of the wallet, propping it up to take a photo with it visible by the body and reporters finding this scene assumed it had been Kurt's "propping". Also, little damage was done to Kurt's face - it was easily seen who he was and was not the carnage you'd expect from a "point-blank" shotgun blast.
Also found next to the body was a cigar box which contained a burnt spoon, a syringe and other heroin paraphernalia, all carefully and neatly put away. No prints at all were found on any of this gear.
Canadian Chemist Roger Lewis read the autopsy report and smelled a rat knowing that drug related 'suicides' are often a staged cover-up for a murder - it is unheard of that someone is going to set themselves up to commit suicide by drug overdose and then still plan to blow their head off. Roger studied 98 similar deaths and their pathology, criminology and forensic data.
Kurt's autopsy revealed that his blood contained 2 to 3 times a "normal", fatal dose of heroin. It's true that addicts build up a tolerance to their drug, and a typical scenario for an overdose is when a (former) addict or one who has taken a break goes back to doing their drug and assumes they can tolerate the same amount they left off at. Their body is no longer used to such a high level, and OD is common. According to "Heroin Addiction: Theory, Research and Treatment" (1986) a lethal dose for a 150 pound male is about 70-80 mg of heroin (heroin immediately turns into morphine in the blood). Kurt weighed 115 pounds (he was a tiny guy) and had 75 times this lethal amount in his blood. Lewis concluded: "There is no way he shot himself up with triple a fatal dose of heroin, rolled down his shirt sleeve, put his syringe and drug kit neatly away in a box, and pulled the trigger. You'd be dead before you even got the needle out of your arm." This is backed by all the medical study - you'd be instantly dead or instantly in a coma and on your way to quickly being so. Lewis' investigation and his belief Kurt was murdered have been ignored by police. His report is titled "Dead Men Don't Pull Triggers".
The New England Journal of Medicine (1973) study by J.C. Garriott "Morphine Concentrations and Survival Periods in Acute Heroin Fatalities" says that no one has ever been found "Naturally overdosed" with a heroin blood level of over .93 ml per litre. Kurt's level was 50% higher than this.
Kurt OD'd in Rome in 1994. All reports - which were known exclusively through Courtney - said that it had been accidental. They hadn't seen each other for a while and although he had been taking prescription Xanax, they also stupidly had some champagne to celebrate being together. Courtney was emphatic that it was "Not a suicide attempt" and continued to tell this same story until his death. After he died, Courtney told the press this had actually been a suicide attempt. This PR move backfired when friends and family blasted the hell out of her and said if this was true why hadn't she mentioned it before - so they could have protected and watched him, gotten him help? Talked to him about it? Why had he said anything but that it had been a stupid accident?
This statement from Courtney was the sole reason that anyone, ever, was of the "belief" that Kurt had tried to kill himself before or was "suicidal".
Kurt's friend Peter Cleary said that Kurt was never suicidal. "Nothing was ever said about that until AFTER he died. Then all of a sudden all you heard was that he was, and had been, kind of setting up this whole scene that he'd eventually do it. And it all came from Courtney. He never was, ever. Never. Ever".
Peter also is quoted as saying, "She would call him a dumb fuck all the time. He would just stand there and take her abuse...he was like a baby. One day he was talking to me and another friend and I guess she thought she was being ignored, so she started calling him a "dickless jackoff" right in front of (daughter) Francis. This is pretty much how it always went towards the end"
Courtney conveniently produced for the police a never-before-seen-or-mentioned suicide note Kurt supposedly wrote at the time of this 1994 Rome "suicide attempt". This note was not brought up at the time in Rome nor mentioned to anyone, ever. A police officer said there had been a note but it was not a suicide note; it was a rambling and unflattering diatribe against her. He said there were some veiled references you'd really have to look hard at to see as "suicidal" and it'd only seem so in hindsight.
The coroner who pronounced Kurt's death a suicide and who had final say in the medical aspects of the investigation was an old friend of Courtney's and used to party with her. Rumors said, he still was..
Eldon Hoke, a porno-rock-redneck-self mutilating scumbag 'artiste' who went by the stage name of El Duce, said Courtney offered him $50,000 to kill Kurt, explaining to El Duce that he'd been "getting to be a real asshole". Eldon turned her down. The fact that Courtney even knew these people speaks volumes; they were so bad that area police used to warn young girls and runaways they befriended to stay the hell away from them and never ever go to the houses or parties - it wasn't rare for people to go missing, get gang raped or worse. Because of El Duce's nefarious life and character, no one believed him of course. He insisted a lie detector test be given to him and it was - by one of the nation's best polygraphers. He passed. Scumbag or not, he had the guts and decency to come forward with the information, and "worse" people have been taken seriously and allowed to testify in murder trials. A few days after coming forward with this information, Hoke was killed by a train in a freak accident
Tom Grant decided to make this all public and went on a Nationally syndicated radio show. Courtney called him afterwards and told him she'd "make it worth his while to drop the investigation'.
After the dust settled, Courtney awarded Cali the Nanny's father a very lucrative contract to entirely remodel her WA home.
A few short weeks after Kurt's death, Courtney went on tour with her band. In fact .. surprize, surprize!! ...Courtney actively went after, and got, the headline act for the Lollapalooza tour that Kurt/Nirvana had been asked to do but which Kurt had declined. The press and most everyone else dubbed her "The Merry Widow" because of her antics and partying, drugging and living it up in spades. Many were amused that she found the time to go get boob implants.
In spite of many reliable people and private investigations turning up much new information on this case, the Seattle police refuse to reopen it in spite of saying publicly that they would if new information was ever discovered or presented to them and they had 'any reason to'.
A comparison of Kurt, Courtney and Cali's handwriting
Kurt's Death Certificate
with all his investigation papers, photos, tapes and reports. Literally an P.I's casework. Usually I rant about people ney off things like this, but he's doing it to try to recoup all the money he spent out of his own pocket to pursue this de his life very unpleasant. With all I've seen this man go through just to get some answers over these years, even h his web sites that he stubbornly kept recreating to keep this info available, he deserves it. His site also has a short, the events and observations he had made during the investigation along with details of the incredible games, lies, and ch put him through to get him to shut up or convince him she didn't have a thing to do with a thing (did I say that out wreck. I have been saddened to see how Hollywood and people embrace her. If Kurt was still alive, she'd be Mrs. Ex-babe..sue me.
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